By, Gina LaVerde
I’m a closet cleanser. Been addicted to cleansing most of my life. No, not “cleaning.” In fact – I can make a mother of a mess. But “cleansing” –like more of a profound changes kind of a thing.
I ritually purge closets and drawers of things we can do without.
A year ago, the two loves of my life, my Dougs, and I left Chi town for La La Land toting only our tiny Mercedes, my son’s Thomas trains, my massage table, our Vitamix and our clothes. My hubby didn’t bring any possessions. The car was his baby, and in June he gave that to his big bro.
We moved here because of a loud and clear vision and message I received from a spirit. It was so loud and clear that I called my hubby at work after I had it, and we began planning or bust-out immediately.
Possessions are nothing for us to giveaway.
It’s the people. And the ideas we have of people. And, our ideas of the ideas they have of us. And, the fear of moving beyond that, of course.
Last week, we went to a gathering, and this guy said to me “ Do you realize how many people work extra hard to avoid their true selves?”
Think about that – what if every moment that turns your stomach does so because it is taking you off your path? Because it is that struggle that keeps you feeling unwell, right? Isn’t it so that resistance or struggle frustrates the flying doo doo outa you?
So, what if you just let go? Ha! Easier said than done, right? Especially when it comes to thought patterns and life choices. Cleansing my life of possessions left me some free space, and gave me practice. But, wowza – did I not expect the pain and blessings that are shaping my moment.
The other day, I got another message. It said that if I don’t take care of things for myself, the universe is going to do it for me. Figure I better shape up and keep my eyes open. Roger that Sam! (Sam’s my spirit guy – I’ll talk more about him later).
My boys and I are planning a world tour. We’re home-schooling and want to give our son a cultural education. He needs it. He loves new experiences. But, we weren’t planning on leaving just yet. Then 3 things happened.
- Our lease is ending
- We got an offer to go somewhere else
- Our landlord came up while we were sitting in candle-light and asked us to be quiet (significant because we weren’t making a peep)
Ok, I got this strange gut feeling when I opened the door. Now, I’m open to leave whenever we need to. Wfew!
But wait, this place is our new home, and the people who criticize us always remark about how we move so much. Ooh what will they say??? ( said my silly inner crtic)
So, that night in dreamland, I got to re-evaluate how I treat people, why I have recently lost friends, and why I was feeling frustrated. And I woke knowing that lots more changes were coming, I also woke with a “clean” perspective of the love in the hearts of the people with whom I have disconnected from. There was always a love n MY heart for them. But, you know what else I realized? I talk a lot!
Yes, I listen and yes I desire to know more about my friends. But not too many of them share with me as much (or even half as much) as I share with them. I woke knowing that I need to shut up a bit. But, more than that. Listen deeper. And, use my voice to reach more people. If my energy had been cooped up in wanting and yearning for something that doesn’t align with me, I’m wasting my energy.
We cannot afford to waste our energy. These are times when major positive shifts are happening. And, we cannot afford to be cooped up. We owe. We owe. We re not “owed.”
On Saturday night, I had one of the most beautiful experiences of my life. I’ve been studying with Laura Bruno to become a Reiki Master Teacher. She has been the TRUEST teacher I have had so far, and I am so mega stoked that I Finally listened to that gut feeling and contacted her.
Saturday night was my attunement to this level of Reiki. And it was filled with visions and love and reassurance – and this new kind of KNOWING.
And then came the tornado of events that I didn’t take care of…that the universe took care of for me. “Harmless” people who I let too close (who had stolen and lied to me in the past) began doing it in a kicked-up manner. I could have let that go earlier in a more peaceful way. Nothing “bad” happened. No one was hurt. But, I really got the confirmation that people interpret words and actions how they want to based on the way they see things in life.
We need to connect with people who vibe with us.
See, it turns out that accepting lies (mostly because I told so many of them before) is one thing. But allowing that in my presence now will hinder my purpose. And yours.
You can love and accept everyone. You can keep your promises; lend a hand and all that jazz. And you don’t even need “respect.” But, if someone is disrespectful to you – how can that help you along? How am I serving people if I allow them to speak negatively behind my back? This kind of energy hurts them too.
I have equated love and acceptance with allowing peeps to walk all over me. And, of course they don’t know it. I would never let them know it.
But, dig this – No one can really disrespect you or treat you in way you don’t like, unless you allow it. Have you heard this? Of course you have!
So, ultimately these situations were not about me letting go of particular people. But more like patterns of my own. I aligned with people who would do this to me. It’s taken me forever to REALLY REALLY appreciate and accept those people who I “think” have hurt me.
As I move on with teaching and coaching it is an absolute necessity that I’m True. And that means I can no longer lie to myself. So, now I let go of a judgment that I never realized I even had – a judgment of me. It was my inner voice wrongfully criticizing me for this and that. Other intuitive people just picked up on it and joined the bandwagon.
No one did anything “to” me. This life is really just an awesome game of experiences.
You can seriously crawl into a ball of Bliss on your fave couch and revel in this, because it’s true. These experiences are taking us somewhere better. Yup! Even better than this. And, I don’t wanna go too quick with it, because I really dig life. I really like to sink my teeth into these moments and enjoy them for every ounce of flavor they got.
Do you realize that by fully aligning with who you are, you inspire others to do the same? If you are angry – how can you re-align?
Let’s all let go of some self-inflicted judgment today. I hope it does you all as good as it does me. Plus all this letting go constantly leads to crazy cool abundancy.
We are so flippin blessed that we have the ability now to really be who we are, and to communicate at this level.
Goodness Gracious, soak it up!
Namaste You Gorgeous Soul
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