I haven’t cried much lately. And, I am someone who really benefits from a good emotional release through tears. Whether it be inspired by a total girl movie, like “The Notebook” (which incidentally, I refuse to watch anymore), the pain of the world, or a song, I love it. I honor it. I’m not afraid to let those tears flow. I love crying. Read more →
Autism recovery is no longer a puzzle. There is so much help for you and your family. We just finished recording the first part of our free conference calls for you. You can listen to the recordings by clicking the links below.
Tell me, what’s your take on carbs? Are they good for you? Or bad? Where’d you read that? More importantly, how do you feel when you eat carbs? Or fats? Or sugar? Have you dabbled in superfoods, herbs, vaganism? Paleo? How about raw foods? Do tell.
What Food Works ?
Have you ever supermarket-stalked those uber sexy model-lookin’ babes whose skin glows and hair whisps in the breeze as they trot on their clouds of fairy dust passed you with carts full of …. What is that? What is she eating that makes her look so good? Then, maybe you get a confusing glimpse of what’s actually in the cart and think…. Oh maybe that’s for her boyfriend or something… Admit it! You want to know what works for people.
I know I did. I wanted that skin. But more-so, I wanted that energy. I used to be so deplete. And I pretty much always ate healthy according to our current but outdated food pyramid and FDA recommendations. But, as soon as I wised-up and did my own personal research and experimentation– I learned that the keys to eating healthy, and even eating to heal illness were really very simple. And, it all began with the notion of doing the opposite of what is publicly “advertised” as healthy.
How Much Does Food Really Matter?
Food Matters. It’s one of the main ways that we get energy. But, once you crack the code on what’s right for you– food doesn’t matter that much anymore. In order to get to this place of satisfaction, you often have to dig deep and really begin to notice how you feel. It can be a challenge, if you’ve been convinced that someone else like your doctor or the FDA could take care of your nutritional needs.
“They” tell us to eat low-fat, and I pretty much did until my late 20’s– replacing things I loved like butter with margarine which is chemically derived. This was not to stay trim, but instead to keep “healthy” and feeling good. But, butter can be a very healthy fat with brain-building, gut-building and hormonal balancing properties. It’s also rather grounding in nature and provides natural healthy calories to energize and keep your metabolism going. We are finding that many of us are deplete in these brain-building fats and experience headache, brain-fog and even autistic or Alzheimer’s-like symptoms where there is a deficiency in saturated fats and fatty acids. I learned this through experiencing my son’s autism journey with him as well as my own candida (systemic fungal infection) recovery.
Personally, I love fermenting raw, organic farmer’s market butter with some olive oil, coconut oil and raw honey to created a delicious, predigested spread that is easily absorbable by your body and has the power to help heal up a leaky gut. The fermenting process breaks down nutrients that may have been harder to digest. This even lessens the load that fats can have on your liver. We also love coconut oil, fatty fish and their oils, and sometimes egg yolks.Yum yum yum!
But, again, “they” disagree. They want you to believe that saturated fats are triggers for heart disease and bad cholesterol, even though they have the opposite effect for many. It’s interesting to me that our brains are in dire need of good fats, and yet doctors for the establishment would tell us to avoid them. Hmmmm… Some of the most beneficial foods in our autism recovery have been fermented cod liver oil, fermented raw butter, coconut oil, hemp oil, fish oil, and other oils. They are anti-inflammatory. When we were raw vegan, I only took cod liver oil out of our diet for about 2 months, just to experiment. For us, no raw vegan supplement proved to be a better replacement. With cod liver oil in particular, in his diet — my son has clearer speech, more organized thoughts and speech, is calmer and overall happier. There is also a noticeable difference in his skin. Without cod liver oil in his diet, he often wakes up with puffy eyes and a headache.
And this is trending now, by the way. So many people are waking up and learning what to eat to make them feel great… And ditching the old food pyramid. It’s highly probable that the old food pyramid (which is the current FDA food pyramid) grew out of an agenda to weaken us physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually. Most of our “fresh” food is sprayed with chemicals that originated as weapons for Hitler’s army. That’s right, common pesticides were first used as neuro-gasses. So, ask yourself why this is not only in our food supply, but it is being mandated and subsidized while our organic food supply is being threatened by big GMO corporations like Monsanto (who are even patenting seeds that already contain pesticides).
I wonder if this whole Fake-Food Movement that’s been rolling out over the last 60+ years has something to do with our collective declining energy and health? Do you wonder this? I wonder why we would even need vitamin supplements. Why doesn’t our food have enough nutrition to sustain us?
I’m Not Buying It
I don’t take vitamins. I don’t eat tofu or other processed soy junkage. Soy, which is a largely subsidized GMO crop has been proven to lower thyroid function, and I’ve felt the energy-sucking effects first-hand. I’m fortunate to be sensitive and capable of recognizing how food effects me.
I don’t buy food enriched with vitamins. I don’t buy eggs with added “omega 3s.” I don’t buy diet foods, convenience foods, packaged –frozen health foods or foods stored in containers like aluminum and plastic that leach chemicals into what we eat. I don’t buy bottled water (unless in Mexico). I steer clear of fresh fruit unless it’s organic, because I’m quite sensitive to chemical sprays. I know this through personal experimentation, and process of elimination. It helps that you can find extensive research that points to the dangers of fake and franken-foods. But, then again, you can find proof for anything. For me, this is an empowering fact. It means that there are many truths and that you can forge your own path. What really works for you? Research the effects of foods that you are intuitively called to eat and cross-reference that info with sources from all sides. Learn why you feel tired after eating corn and why you crave salt or sugar. These are empowering tools. I bet you find that you need to create your own food truth.
If I am going to splurge on a packaged snack, I am going to do it with style. I’m not going to hide from the facts. I am not fooled by the processed food industry. I know that none of it promotes real health. I know that if I eat a bag of chips, I’m not getting vitamins. I’m not getting clean fat or protein. And, depending on the quality of the product, I may be getting negative nutrition. Which is to say that the amount of chemicals and indigestible crap I’d be consuming might leave me hungry. And toxic ( which is a word that’s also very trendy right now).
I understand that vitamin pills will probably go un-absorbed and may even cause damage because they often do not contain the co-factors needed to fully absorb them.
But, I’m not a food priss. Sometimes I know that eating is what’s most important. Over-thinking on the food-front can drive you bonkers. And sometimes, I just plain like to eat to enjoy the taste of something.
So, if I am going to eat “junk food” I’m going to do it with style. I’m going to choose the ice cream because at a least that’s Matt Stone approved, and this dude knows what he is talking about. I met Matt at the Fitness Expo in LA where we both spoke about food. Matt mentioned that you can basically forget about proper food absorption if your body temperature is low. Well, guess what? I was a cold hands and feet girl forever! So are many of my clients who are also quite sensitive and intuitive people. And, I’ve always had nutrient absorption issues.
What does it matter that you’re eating the healthiest food on the planet if none of it is getting absorbed? Believe it or not, I had this issue myself. After using a raw food vegan, probiotic, superfood diet to heal myself from systemic candida, I experienced what Chinese Medicine would call Spleen Qi Deficiency, and also Spleen Dampness. in Chinese Medicine, this means that my temperature was low, my energy was low, fluids were not moving properly, I felt heavy. In essence it meant that raw foods, which are very cooling in nature did not actually heal my candida problem. They simply energized me enough to get to the next step. Most of my clients are in the same boat. Strangely enough my story was beginning to sound a lot like what Matt shared at the conference. I always had the chills. I had a weak bladder. I was underweight, and hungry enough to eat most anything that didn’t run away from me. And again, I was seeing parallels in my clients too. So, I had to dig deeper.
According to Matt’s research and self-experimentation (and work with his own clients), he found that no matter how “healthy,” and we’re talking really healthy like the organic, raw food crazy guru healthy, people ate…. It takes a warm body temp of at least 98.6 to keep the metabolism functioning. So, like I learned in Chinese Med Classes, if things are too cold, your spleen is not going to help turn your food into energy. From Matt’s perspective, we also see the mal effects low body temp have on hormones and therefore enzyme production. This could mean that for some people, eating a cooling raw food diet for a long time, may cause you to not absorb anything. Which kind of explains why I got those once-in-a-while cravings for pizza or ice cream.
Matt has found some healing power in the unlikely form of processed foods. Some processed foods have the ability to raise our body temps quickly and get us out of panic mode. That’s why we go for the chips or pretzels or pizza after we wait too long to eat. In a sense, we a following our intuition. Once your body temperature is raised you can go back to eating more balanced. This is not exactly a quick fix, although it may feel like it. For example, you can have a great relationship with a slice of pizza and completely regain energy and feel amazing, but for complete relief, you would need to find your true balance.
Think For Yourself
If you are having thyroid and adrenal issues, this would be something to think about. What can you do to warm you up and start your metabolism going? I don’t advocate junk food for health– but I fully acknowledge its potential. I would hope that some sugar, salt fat and carb -laden natural dish could have the same effect. But, according to Matt Stone’s talk, ice cream is totally where it’s at.
So, I put it to the test.
I figured that at the very least, ice cream will provide me with some fat to get my metabolism going. And let’s not forget that it’s just plain delicious. I postulate that the joy response triggered by ice cream will boost my serotonin, make me happier, nicer and more likely to attract hot clients and cool conversations. Processed health foods, like soy protein powder, may do just as much harm to my body without making me smile. This way I also save money for the farmer’s market because ice cream is cheaper than power bars.
Experiment For Yourself
I’ve experimented with a few of Matt’s suggestions which for me translated into allowing myself to have some sugar, gluten and dairy, and less liquids. All liquids cool your body. This also relates to frequent urination and spleen dampness. Perhaps there were other nutritional factors in the cheese or bread that I had overlooked before. Typically, if you have candida overgrowth and spleen problems you’d want to avoid these foods that cause extra dampness or mucous in your body. Another crazy paradigm buster. These foods should’ve made me feel sicker. All it took me was to enjoy a small amount of this “new food” and a good intention, and my body temp is normal, I have more energy and feel much better. I think I might write another piece about how healthy food was killing me… Too dramatic?
Well, it was kind of killing me. My favorite part of this new food awakening is that I’m eating some sweet foods again, which simply opens up my options. I’d always had the sneaking suspicion that candida feeds more on imbalance than it does on sugar. But as part of our recovery from candida and autism, I removed all sugar for nearly a year. Even fruit. Maybe this does need to be done in extreme cases. I think I only required the ice cream jolt because I went from one extreme to another. As a quite sensitive person on all levels, not creating restrictions has been the best gift I’ve given myself.
Now I’m eating raw and cooked fish, an abundance of raw and cooked organic vegetables, some seeds and grains, some raw dairy– preferably fermented with BACTERIA, bone broth (bye bye vegan days), tons of coconuts, avocados, and occasionally pizza because it makes me so happy –and I’m traveling and having to improvise. I’m eating what I feel like eating. Simple stuff. I’m not saying “no” because of dogma. I’m saying “no” because I don’t want certain foods right now. Eating food and not skipping meals is far more important for me now than having the perfect meal. I’m having no reactions to some gluten or cheese. I’m feeling energetic. My skin would make the old me so freaken jealous. And, the raw fish feels very good for me. I digest it so well. I’ve laid off the quinoa for a bit and sometimes have some rice or lentils, because it’s what feels best now.
I’m sure as time goes by this too will change for me. When I was raw vegan I felt sooo good for a pretty long while. But, by nature I’m thin, cool, and sensitive. I feel much warmer and grounded with animal products in my diet.
Trust Your Gut
I’ve learned to eat intuitively, and go with the flow of change. My needs change. When I went raw vegan, there was a paradigm shift in me. One that had been brewing since the day I was born. Raw Veganism inspired me to eat slower, more consciously and closer to the earth. It inspired mucho gratitude and mucho physical and spiritual health. But, it so did not sustain me. There was a point when I had seizures and realized I was very deplete in nutrients and food energy that can only be gotten through incorporating animal products into my diet.
I hated the thought of eating animals. And, now that I’m in Mexico, foster-parenting chickens — I find my bleeding heart even more in-tune with nature. I truly don’t believe that any human can have all of the answers about what we NEED to eat. But, for some reason, right now– I’m flying on cloud BLISS with a small amount of meat in my diet.
Now, I don’t crave anything, because I don’t allow myself to become deplete. Food is delicious. Food helps bring people together. I’m an advocate for the cleanest most high-vibe eats possible, growing and sharing our own food, and being informed about what our food is made from so that we can make educated choices. And, now I see the purpose of foods beyond my slanted vegan perception. There is healing power everywhere!
Own Your Truth
I’m intuiting a lot of information about why many people are gravitating toward veganism and vegetarianism. It makes so much sense for the planet and does loads of good for personal detoxification. Raw food, in particular is vibrationally very high, and can help open your pineal gland. Many of my students intuitively go raw when taking Psychic Skool. But, there is so much that we don’t face as humans. Scientifically, it’s super difficult to really pinpoint where we even came from. We don’t necessarily “fit” in nature the way other animals do. So, how can we compare? A great raw vegan diet pretty much encompasses the necessary nutritional profile to keep you going…. If lots of other things are in place. I may go back to it one day. For now, the animals (fish) who I eat are okay with me consciously consuming them… Which I do a few times per month. I also fully understand that there is no death. Life energy continues infinitely.
What about you? I’m curious if food matters to you and if you’ve experimented and found something that works for you, but contradicts the “norm?” I’d love to hear what it is.
Even people who don’t Ike their vegetables seem to flip over kale chips. A tiny bag of them at the Santa Monica Co-op is about 8 bucks. And, if you’ve ever bought them, you know you don’t really wanna share yours. These crunchy, salty bites of BLISS are all the rave in the raw food community.
Yet, with so many of us dealing with low thyroid function, it’s important to know that raw cruciferous veggies do contain goitrogens, which are thyroid inhibitors. Too many raw cruciferous vegetables like kale, collard greens, cabbage, broccoli and Brussels sprouts can slow your thyroid function.
Remember that your thyroid is responsible for energy, speed of digestion, hormone balance, sex drive and more! Most people notice the effect in their depleted energy levels. They get tired. You might need a major nap after downing a handful of raw kale chips if they are slowing your thyroid.
Plenty of peeps seem to do just fine with them. But, my clients tend to be very sensitive and dealing with complicated autoimmune issues. So, I try to come up with recipes that are more easily digestible than what’s popular. Yet just as yummy.
I’ve learned that fermenting allows you to enjoy these enzyme-rich foods in their raw form without the negative effects– because the fermentation process pre-digests the vegetables. But, fermented kale chips don’t taste so great!
I believe this recipe is a little bit healthier for our ever-loving-thyroids because it gets broken down a little and then dehydrated at a higher temperature. They are delish! I’m mucho sensitive, and I can eat a whole batch with no problemo.
I’ll have more info coming up on thyroid and adrenal health as I’m going to be experimenting with balancing my own endocrine system.
Lots of kale ( we like dinosaur kale the best for chips)
1 lemon per bunch of kale
Dash of apple cider vinegar
We like to keep our kale leaves whole when using dinosaur kale, and we tear them apart by hand if using the more leafy kind.
Clean up your kale and cut off the fibrous stem part. Then, let it dry naturally.
Use your taste buds to help you gauge the amount of spices to use. Taste as you go. I like a lot of spice. Give your kale a good massage with lemons, apple cider vinegar, oil and the spice mixture. Then allow it to marinate overnight in a covered glass bowl or pan.
Then, line up your chips so that none are touching and air can circulate, and dehydrate these beauties at a slightly warmer temp. I do 150 degrees in my Excalibur dehydrator until crispy. It takes about 5 hours.
Or, you can line your kale up on a pizza pan or non toxic baking dish and bake at your lowest temp until crispy.
Whip these chips up in a jiff and have a healthier snack for your family. Dip them in guacamole, hummus, seed cheese, or your favorite spread, and store in a paper bag. Plastic makes them all mushy. If you want to have a bunch on hand, it’s best to make extra dough and freeze until your ready to dehydrate and eat them– because they taste better this way. And they won’t last too long in the fridge.
3 large zucchini squash
3 large carrots
1/4 cup chopped green onion
½ cup fresh dill
2-3 tsp celery seed
1 tbsp. olive oil
Pinch sea salt
Shred your zucchini and carrots in a food processor, add in chopped green onion, dill, celery seed and olive oil and sea salt — and process for about 1 minute. Your mixture should be slightly sticky.
Raw Method: Spoon cracker sized servings onto dehydrator sheets and dehydrate for 5-6 hours. Flip your chips every two hours. I use an Excalibur dehydrator at 115 degrees.
Baked Method: Spoon cracker sized servings onto a greased pizza stone and bake on low for 2-3 hours or until crispy. Flip your chips after 1 hour.
Variations: add spinach, arugula, and vary the herbs for different flavors.
How many times have you wished that you defied the logical choice and went with your “gut?” If the words “I just knew it” cross your lips more than occasionally then, I ask you: what’s stopping you from going with your gut?
Sure, we can’t always prove the truth behind these hunches, so relying solely on instinct gets tough.
But, here’s why you need to pay more attention to those little voices inside you.
Oprah Says So
We’re not huge Oprah fans. But the fact that main stream-media covered a topic that speaks to the very work we do in the alternative health world is quite promising. The March 2007 issue of “O Magazine” ran a fairly comprehensive article about the logic behind using our guts to decide our next moves. Citing the re-discovery of the enteric nervous system (also known as the second brain), in the 1980’s as scientific proof that “thinking” happens in our bellies.
We now know that our brains and guts vibrationally communicate with each other through this enteric nervous system. ( and, in fact, DNA changes as a result of this same type of inner vibrational communication). Your gut sends at least double the information to your brain than your brain sends to your gut. The balance of healthy bacteria and yeast in your digestive system aids in this communication process.
Main-stream media continues to half-cover important health topics like digestive health and intuitive thinking. In fact, a recent headliner about the dangers of sugar even provoked my mother to write me about what she’d seen on the news. Over-use of sugar may be related to poor gut health and therefore a botched line of communication from gut to brain, pathogenic candida overgrowth and brain fog. The truth is that most of my clients are suffering from candida, and have a difficult time understanding their gut feelings. But, it’s not just sugar that is the culprit. I’ve experienced more candida flare up (in myself, family and clients) as a result of imbalanced eating and stress. When the main-stream media tells you that sugar is bad, it inspires a frenzy of guilt-ful eating of sugar, disordered and restrictive eating, and stress.
What I’d like to see is a media who tells you what is really healthy. One who tells you about the fermented foods, good fats and super nutrient dense whole foods (not GMO) that help balance the micro-organisms in your gut and naturally allow for the flow of clearer intuitive thinking.
The trick is that when something on the boob tube catches your eye and feels like it could be right, go do your own research in books and online. Gently experiment with yourself. Maybe you’re not clear on what your gut is saying to you now, but thankfully nature has given us many tools for practice. The very act of trusting your gut allows for clearer messages to come through. And, believe it or not — trusting your gut also vibrationally heals bacteria/yeast imbalance.
Our own familiy’s healing from autism, heavy metal poisons and various infections began with a rigorous Body Ecology Diet which worked rather quickly to heal our physical guts by replenishing necessary healthy bacteria and yeast with fermented foods. And, one of the most valuable lessons I learned was that trusting my gut meant I couldn’t follow that diet forever. We dabbled In the healing powers of raw foods and saw great results for 2 years. We dabbled in super foods, raw meat eating, and some GAPS and Westin A Price Protocol. Then, finally I began studying Chinese Medicine and have come to realize that intuitive eating is the best way to keep balance and full health for our family. I now teach my clients how to honor their gut instincts and keep their physical guts in the best shape possible so that they can truly hear what their bodies are telling them regardless of what some guru or book tells them.
Soon, I even learned that I could gauge my physical health based upon how clear my intuition is. After the gut healing Body Ecology Diet, I became really psychic. But, once that work was done, I would experience brain fog if I overdid “healing foods” like coconut kefir or algaes. Sometimes gut balance for me meant eating bread… The very beast that I was told was the cause of my problems in the first place.
Trusting your gut and knowing yourself is an endless journey. We learn more each day, but it’s important to take action on what we learn if we want to see real changes in our health. It’s easier than you might think.
Try this O Mag. inspired exercise:
Have a seat in a comfy chair, take a deep breath and clear your mind (as much as you can). Now, push firmly on your abdomen. Is it soft and pliable, or does it feel hard and tense? If you are truly relaxed, your gut should show it with flexibility. Now – think of your job, your in-laws, or something that you know stresses you. After briefly concentrating on the stressor – feel your belly. The gut tenses up during stress. Doesn’t it?
Ancient Cultures Believed in Gut Thinking
In the Western world we’ve got our brains and our hearts to help make decisions. We are either logical thinkers because we use our brains to consider all facts. Or, we are emotional saps because we use our hearts to “feel” our way to the answers. Society tends to favor straight logic because we like to see physical results. But, in eastern culture emotions and logic are intertwined in the gut. We think because we feel and both are of equal importance.
Eastern philosophies have been healing people and keeping them well for at least a documented 2000 years. New science continues to prove the valid relationship between organ function that now can be measured and ancient practices like acupuncture and energy meridians that come from China. The cool thing is all of this can be easily adapted and proven in your own life without huge cost or pain.
Try it and see.
Think about how relieving it would be if you didn’t feel compelled to second-guess your intuition. Does thinking like this cause your tummy to relax?
The Power of Thought Can Help You or Haunt You
If you’ve got a sneaking suspicion that your boss isn’t going to like your new proposal, and you don’t address the subject – you may be setting yourself up for failure. Keeping looming thoughts internalized, without changing the physical situation may cause you to foul on the job just because you are focussing on what you don’t want. We can make ourselves fail by thinking that we will. However, if we address the problem we can let go of negative thinking. If you simply go to your boss with an outline and a few questions just to make sure you’re on track with what he/she wants — you may find out that your presumption was silly. But, you’ll save yourself from causing unnecessary stress.
Have you got a major decision to make right now? Feel your gut as you consider your options. It should soften as you come to the choice that is most comfortable for you. Going with the comfortable choice means that you can put all of your positive efforts into succeeding.
Most of us are fully aware that the holistic approach to healing begins in the gut. Vitamins are made in our digestive systems, our immunity and moods are determined there too. In yoga, we breathe into our abdomens, and our bellies are the core of all feelings.
So, it’s not far-fetched that that little notion you had to call your sister might be right on the mark.
The next time you get a hunch about what numbers to play, or how to help a buddy out of a sticky situation – Listen to your gut. Take the time to feel what your gut is telling you, and go with it.
What might happen if you didn’t go with instinct on some important decisions?
Some of my near and dear friends have put together this program to help on your journey through eating disorders. Through my research and experience working with people who have autism and digestive illness — I meet many people who are dealing with eating disorders and looking for healing. There are so many similarities behind the conditions — candida and parasites, metal and chemical toxicity to emotional trauma. Therefore, I know there’s a way to feel better. I wish you love on your journey. And, Know that you have friends to see you through it.
Dougie was once diagnosed with autism, and was very sick with candida yeast infections, vaccine poison, heavy metals, viruses, parasites, bacterial infections, food allergies and more. He began regressing developmentally at age 2 or slightly before. He did display all symptoms of autism, and in fact, we were told he was severe by the Chicago Schools. Some said he would never talk. We were more worried that he was very physically ill and also that he had dangerous tendencies like lack of awareness and not being able to protect himself (walking outside, crossing street). We wanted our son to have the best chance at health possible. We completely changed our lives, diet and spirituality. As we unpeeled layers of physical illness, the autism symptoms surfaced and left. He is 7 and quite healthy now. We homeschool him and we all love it,
These are our latest videos. Dougie loves outer space and making films. He draws story boards and films himself.
He got really bad diarrhea. Really bad sore throats and ear aches. He coughed a lot. He threw up a lot. He didn’t want to eat. He needed medicine so we got it for him. He fought us when giving him the medicine. While, we thought it was the best thing for him, the strength with which he fought was quite extraordinary. It made me think deeper.
Within the first five months of this illness (we don’t have any other word for this, but illness), I was on the phone with several doctors and nurses inquiring when this medicine would take effect… And why he would fight me so hard? Did they think that maybe he instinctively knew he was allergic to the meds? Nope. According to them, he was just sick…. Like all kids get, and this would end one day. But, he “needed that medicine.”
When I made the decision to fight his infections naturally, and took away the meds– he began getting healthier right away. We still had prescriptions left in the bottles, and I was using some of the first remedies I’d learned about: garlic, cayenne, raw honey, vitamin c and colloidal silver. We could tell he was healing because he got an appetite, and seemed less irritable. But we were a long way from Thriving.
I have to admit that I didn’t do any research on vaccines before deciding to get them. My doubts were merely gut feelings. I also couldn’t figure out why the nurse in my doctor’s office was telling me that I could choose… In not so many words, she was giving me the choice. Nonetheless, a few months off the regular vaccine schedule– my son went in to get his 18 month shots. And when I got home from work, he was sitting on the chair very lethargically. I called the doctor, and was told that this could be a reaction to the shot. I can’t remember if I gave him Tylenol that time. But,that was suggested to me.We used to give it to him before every shot to prevent fever, and it worked. Little did we know that Tylenol blocks glutathione — our bodies’ natural way of detoxing.
Before becoming sick, our angel loved to eat a variety of healthy foods. He loved zucchini, tomatoes, avocados and blueberries. He was only 2 years old when he first got sick, so he was mostly eating whole unprocessed foods. But, he’d had bread without a negative reaction. After getting sick, he only wanted carbs and sugary foods like pizza and French fries. His belly was very distended.
I set out to understand what was making him sick, because even after using my natural remedies, Dougie still had awful digestive and bowel problems. I felt I needed to get him to eat right. But, I was no longer sure what that meant. Most of his time by now was spent staring or crying. He wasn’t very mobile. I tried holding him, but at times he didn’t want me. So, I tried making him as comfortable as I could.
I was sad. I wanted to make sure he was happy, and he sure wasn’t. He often cried for spans of 12 hours at a time. Soon, I learned that there was a certain thing I could do with my hands that REALLY worked. All I had to do was touch him with a certain vibration running through me ( it was something I felt emotionally and physically but could not explain), and he would stop crying and seem very comforted.
The way Dougie was acting when he wasn’t in pain and sadness really resembled autism. I’d cared for and befriended many people with autism in my life before Dougie was born. I’d even had dreams and waking premonitions that I’d have a child with special needs. I’d seen him exactly as he was then in dreams years before he was born. These were dreams I discussed with my husband when I’d had them, but forgotten about until I took a breath and saw what was happening before my eyes.
So, on one hand I had a sick child who I knew was going to heal. I just wasn’t sure how. On the other hand, I had a child who was showing signs of autism. Sometimes these symptoms meant he would line things up, stare, hand flap or be obsessive over certain toys like Thomas the train. Signs that he has an amazing brain. Something I wanted to know more about. Other symptoms were toe walking, spinning and spreading poop on the walls. Some of these things could get dangerous, So, I made attempts to help him do them more safely. I spun with him in public to show him how cool he is. I took him to parks where he banged the monkey bars to hear the sound, and I joined him. I think he knew he was cool. He still does. He doesn’t care one bit about what people think about him and, he is my greatest inspiration.
So, in the spirit of doing what was right for him, I called my aunt who is a special ed teacher. I was first doing what I was trained to do, and then doing my own research, prayers and meditation in the background….trying to cover all bases and give Dougie the best life possible.
I set up evaluations for him so that we could get any kind of special services that he might need. I got lots of help from my aunt who taught me a little about Neuro-Diversity. Yes! That brilliant brain idea of different thinkers–that felt like my child. The idea that some people’s brains are simply wired differently. I knew that was part of our puzzle. I began to notice some signs that came before he got sick. Like how he rolled over early and talked early. He also really vibrated uniqueness. Not in the standard sense of genius..something more and different.
It’s a damn good thing that I had pneumonia for five months when this was happening, because– I too was craving yeasty/sugary foods, and having the worst digestive problems. My gut was so swollen that my mom thought I was hiding a pregnancy. So, I drank the kefir too. This was when BLISS started happening.
Within one week, Dougie had eye contact back. His tummy was going down. He was trying different food. Wow! I hadn’t asked for his eye contact. Yes, I wondered what happened to it. Yes, it was a symptom of autism. I started feeling better and noticing that my illness was going away. What’s more is that a major brain fog was lifting. I’d been having small seizures and passing out. We discovered that Dougie was too. The kefir was helping us think more clearly, and stop having seizures. Suddenly things in our family calmed down. Less crying… Still lots, but way less. More trying healthier foods without tantrums. Every day our strengths and physical health got better.
As Dougie healed physically, those classic autism symptoms came up. We were convinced he had it. And, we continued on with evaluations even though we absolutely hated the idea of having our kid labeled and evaluated by “experts.” I found that many children with autism have these painful gut issues and that Dougie was tantruming because he was in awful pain. The pain I experienced in my body was nothing compared to what he was feeling. I joined a support group of moms who are still the smartest people I have ever met. Together, we were helping our kids heal from food allergies, leaky gut, candida and more though diet.
By this time I discovered the deep connection between autism and gut health. I knew that some people had already lost their autism diagnosis after balancing out the body with dietary therapies. That was intriguing. And Hopeful.
Dougie was spinning, licking everything in sight, staring, lining things up –all classical symptoms of autism. And, we could see these symptoms coming out as he physically healed. He still wasn’t talking and we wondered if he every would. He was our angel and he was getting well, and we were all so happy that we were getting some sleep and even able to go out and have fun together again. It didn’t matter to us if Dougie ever talked. It didn’t matter to us if Dougie always had sensory issues. But, we were determined to give him everything in our power to teach him what we know, and introduce him to people who could teach him more. I’m patient, and I understand him on a vibrational level. Yes, there were times of mass confusion when I didn’t know what he had slipped into his mouth while I was in the bathroom (and most of the time he had to come with me to the bathroom).
If my child was going to grow up to be someone who spread poop on the walls, stared at walls and hand flapped–I would understand. I would do my best to teach him safe and healthy ways to treat his body and others. But, I would love and accept him no matter what he is or does. Incidentally, he stopped spreading poop on the walls after I engaged him in the clean-up process.
There is a beautiful mind, and there is sickness. A beautiful mind can also sometime get sick. Many of the people who I have met over the years with autism have taught me infinitudes about uniqueness, genius and of course, Neuro-Diversity. This is the beautiful mind part. Dougie healed each day, and less illness and more genius was making its way to the surface. His memory is amazing.
Dougie was detoxing out really gross things including parasites in his poop. One day while sitting on the toilet, he said, “my name is Dougie. I am 4 years old.” That was his first statement after getting sick. It had been years since he said anything that wasn’t just repetitive. I cried. He didn’t say much after that for a while. But, I noted that he said it after releasing a lot of frothy, foamy, gross stuff in his poop. Candida. Yuk!
He did get an evaluation and label of autism at age 3. He spent 2 years in speech and occupational therapies that were hard on him. We pulled him from the services because the people treated him like he was sick. Like he would never get better. We didn’t want any experts who knew nothing about us–working with our child.
That is, He was completely changing and becoming happier. He was talking clearly and wanting to socialize. He stopped all self injurious behavior (which flared up during times of detox, and we discovered was his body’s way of handling the inner stress of detoxing poisons).
He learns differently. He doesn’t understand “regular” ways of teaching math and science –which makes things much more fun for us. My husband and I get down on the floor with him and build puzzles. Dance. Drum. Sing kirtan. He “gets” so much on a much deeper level than most adults I know. There are concepts that Dougie understands far beyond the ability of his peers. Yet, there are things that kids his age say and do that he doesn’t vibe with. Each and every person in this world offers unique gifts. As adults, it’s socially easier to be different. We can specialize in one topic if we want, and make a great life out of it. Children are subject to so much judgement, and expected to be the same. Part of unscholling means changing this paradigm.
We really don’t like labels. We use them on this site to help people who want our help. But, we don’t define Dougie as anything but himself. We don’t mind if people say that he never had autism or that he still has it. That’s their prerogative and distraction. We love Dougie and know that his mind is very special. That’s why we helped him heal it.
Everything that happens on an inner level in our bodies and minds, is representative of what’s going on globally. We are all connected to one another and to our planet. I see autism as a symbol of what is going on on the planet. Our planet needs more special care and attention. Honoring our uniqueness and diversity honors our planet too. Things that harm the planet harm us on many levels. Our planet’s cry for help is representative of autism’s cry for help. I believe that the neuro-diverse mind has something very necessary to our survival. And that our planet is begging us to listen to them. My son Dougie can see Reiki when I do it for him. He wants it and loves the way it feels. Since cleaning up my life, I too am extremely psychic. I believe that it is the tapping into this psychic power…. The other side of our brains, that will help save us. Our planet will be fine. She’s just giving us clues about what we need to survive.
There are infinitudes of science to back up these beliefs, but then again you can find science to back up most claims these days. This is our story so far. And, it’s as true as my soul can muster. I had a beautiful child who got sick, and now he is thriving beyond belief. Label makers called it autism. I saw many layers underneath that could be cured. And, as we undid food allergies, metal poison and digestive issues– lo and behold the illness part went away. Some people glorify autism, and I don’t understand why. But, it’s okay with me if they want to use it to define themselves. We don’t. When Dougie’s older, he can decide if he wants to. To me, It’s just a label created by folks to put others in a box so they could understand them better. It cannot describe an individual. We are not proud of autism, as we are not proud democrats, republicans, Christians etc… These are labels that separate us. What we need is to come together and love one another… Or at least love ourselves enough to not have the need to judge others.
When I was a child, I used to hand flap, toe walk and line up soda bottles. I hated jeans for the way they felt on my skin. I was terrified to talk to many people I knew. I could see energy in the air. I knew things about people I didn’t want to know. I remembered being a nun in a past life, but none of it made sense to me when I tried to understand myself based on what my parents and religion taught me. I grew up just slightly different, I wrote a lot. I began writing a novel about a girl with these abilities. Is she Neuro-Diverse? Perhaps.
I got great grades in school without trying, but struggled with headaches, infections of all kinds, and as I got older — fainting spells. I was never really physically healthy until now. Because my son got sick, he inspired me to make the changes I also needed to balance my whole life. I do believe we all can thrive. And, that we get to choose what that means to us.
I believe my son chose me because I’m the perfect match for him on this lifetime’s adventure. I believe that there is so much beauty in being different and choosing different paths. I support you on yours no matter what you choose.