Dream: Shadow-Self Embracing with Jesus (Part 3: The Red-Power Tricycle)

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Here is part 3 of last night’s dream. Catch up with part 1 and part 2

I ran  down the old Roman street so fast that my body began lifting off the road, and again I was flying. When I let go of the loss I felt for my life there and my husband I was sucked back into the light portal. I felt the colors cleansing me of pain left behind from Rome. I didn’t see the pain as details, but I felt it lifting. Pressure lifted from my head and limbs. I felt a sensation like being sucked through a vacuum.

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Dream: Shadow-Self Embracing with Jesus (Part 1)

Stained glass at St John the Baptist's Anglica... Stained glass at St John the Baptist’s Anglican Church http://www.stjohnsashfield.org.au, Ashfield, New South Wales. Illustrates Jesus’ description of himself “I am the Good Shepherd” (from the Gospel of John, chapter 10, verse 11). This version of the image shows the detail of his face. The memorial window is also captioned: “To the Glory of God and in Loving Memory of William Wright. Died 6th November, 1932. Aged 70 Yrs.” (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Dreams are very important to me and my work. It is in our dreams that we let go of the human (3 dimensional world) limitations that keep us from knowing our true selves. As I travel my path and continue to help others on theirs, I thought it would be helpful to share some of my dreams with you. I’ve been so close to Jesus (in the most non-religious way imaginable) since I was a child. He has physically held me and guided me through the craziest and most confusing times. This post is not to offend anyone else’s interpretation of who Jesus is. 

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Autism Recovery Stimming : An Autism Mom’s Insight

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English: Subject: Quinn, an ~18 month old boy with autism, obsessively stacking cans. Date: Late 2002. Place: Walnut Creek, California. Photographer: Andwhatsnext. Scanned photograph. Credit: Copyright (c) 2003 by Nancy J Price (aka Mom). This is an edited version of Image:Autism-stacking-cans.jpg. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Hello Lovelies,

Today’s Post comes from my Friend, Client, Soul Sister, and fellow autism Advocate.  If you haven’t already checked out the amazing Thinking Mom’s Blog, where she contributes…. do it today.

The idea of “Spiritual Stimming,” represents most of my work to help heal autism. When our kids stim (repetitive behaviors like hand-flapping and spinning), there is a reason. It is natural for them. These movements and habits are meant to bring them into balance.

Spirtitual Stimming, By Guest Blogger: Princess

So, in the day-in-day-out reality of living with a child on the spectrum, do you ever stop and think to yourself, there’s got to be more to this? I mean, at the very least, those of you who believe in God or a higher power must have trouble settling for the idea that autism is merely toxic exposure and the result of corporate greed. This is not to say that it isn’t both of those things, but beyond that – if you believe in God, like I do, then you must often ask yourself more personal questions – why YOU? Why your child? What lessons are you supposed to take from this experience? After all, I don’t know about you, but the God that I like to believe in is loving, caring and wants my very best. I remember really struggling with this in the past – looking at my son and then being unable to fathom how there could be anything good about his autism. How come I got stuck with this terrible tragedy?

Lately, I actually focus way more time on all of its blessings for me. And do you want to know why I do this? I absolutely, consciously and intentionally choose to because every moment is like a new choice all over again. I do this because I don’t like the way the alternative makes me feel. On days where I lose sight of many of these ideas, I feel sad, depressed and like a victim. On the days where I can remind myself of the bigger picture, I feel hope, limitless, excitement. Best of all? It usually opens up a channel, opportunity or possibility that I didn’t have before with my son. Staying committed to comfort and happiness no matter the situation is something that has completely saved me from my past self.

So, as I already design my destination (happiness, finding opportunity with my lot), how do I then build a case full of evidence to support this destination? I have spent hours and hours and hours creating beliefs to support this goal and pondering the purpose for it all. I can’t say I know the ‘right’ answer, nor will I ever with certainty, but using my imagination gives me so much solace and excitement for the future.

I also look to the past and the present to build my case for meaning. I still find pieces from six months ago that are only starting to click now in my life. What a shame it would have been for me to spend the last six months miserable only to now find that there was a purpose for the situation when I could have trusted in this principle from the start and remained trusting of God and the universe that they too had a purpose for my benefit and stayed comfortable all this time?

Some helpful questions I have asked myself are:

  • What can I learn from my son?
  • What is he here to teach the world?

  • How is this experience perfect for me right now?

  • How do I explain his behaviors as meaningful?

Living the persona of victim didn’t really give me an empowered feeling. These questions take the power away from the ‘damage done to me’ to a personalized, specific and intentional path designed just for me by God. And adopting these beliefs doesn’t mean that I don’t stand up for what matters to me anymore either – all it means is that I take the control back by how I respond.

As I’ve created this blueprint for living for myself, I am constantly on the look-out for new opportunities and significance to my life and my son’s autism all the time. Recently, while participating in a guided mediation at a personal development program at the Option Institute, I was instructed to rock back and forth during the meditation where I then addressed God or the Universe for answers to some of my questions (in a series with other repetitious exclusive behaviors). While doing this, I immediately was reminded of my son and his stims or ISMs. I let go into the meditation and allowed my body to sway to its own rhythms, tuning into my core. This was different than the experiences I’d had joining my son (See video on joining here)  in his ISM because it was entirely my own! I moved to my own tempo, intensity and could change the rhythm as I pleased to deepen my connection to myself and to God. I marveled during this experience how deeply spiritual it felt and immediately imagined that all my son’s ISMs were actually his own meditations, tapping into the creator. Wow! What a shift! I now not only saw them as something he needed to do to help himself physically and mentally but now spiritually, too!

Here is an excerpt from a recent blog post I wrote on this experience:

“As we drummed, I shared in the exquisite beauty of his looks to the light peering through our open window, in the midst of the storm – the branches and leaves being heavily swayed by the powerful wind. We looked together and marveled – I could feel God with my son…In the course of two minutes in my mind, by believing that the cause is in the future, I created so much meaning and intention to joining and the experience was wildly different than any other session we’ve ever shared in the playroom. I could feel his real joy at including me and instead of me just attempting to join him in his world, he truly did invite me in. He gave me flashes of smiles of worlds of understanding, occassionally would reach over and beat on my drum too and during one precious moment, relaxed onto the cushioned padding in the corner of the room, assuredly, knowing I’d follow him and as I did, and we both laid in a 90 degree angle with our respective drums, he had the most all-knowing and peaceful smile I’d ever seen. We directed our bodies toward the cracks in the windows and played to God as we watched the branches dance before us.”

This time when I entered my son’s special playroom and joined him in his ISMs, it took on a whole new meaning. I joined him… but truly truly joined him, taking myself back my own experience of ISMing, and our souls danced together! How amazing that I could build such closeness with this special soul gifted to me and to also see it as such a gift!

Now, this could be completely made up – I have no ‘proof’ that this is what he’s doing when he’s exclusive and repetitious, but when I went into his playroom with this belief, he was so much more open and receptive to me – so, either way, it’s here to stay! Am I ignorant for being okay with that? Absolutely not – I am staying true to my #1 goal of being happy with him and my life in this moment by adopting this belief. Nobody is pulling a swift one on me – I am jumping in head first knowing full well that it’s entirely made up by me and not looking back because the end-result feels so good. I already lived life trying to have proof for all my beliefs and it led me to a life of misery and disconnectedness from my son. How can you make up a belief for why your child’s ISMs are amazing or intended to teach you something?

My case is not closed, but I have collected a lot of evidence since I decided to open it for why God brought me this special little guy. He is not just one of the many canaries in the coal mine for our world. He is also MY canary … destined for me specifically — helping me turn my heart and soul into a glistening gold mine.

Or maybe not…?

Hmmm :)

So now’s your chance – you get to decide too.

Coal or gold? What’s it gonna be?

:)

~ Princess

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Energy Shifts Increase the Necessity for Eco Conscious Living Now

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I was never a deep follower of astrology. Mostly because I never found the time to absorb all of the math involved, and I’m not interested in the trendy horoscope stuff you find in the check-out lane next to the tabloids. I want the real deal. So, I waited until I was ready. I’m by no means an authority on the subject, but my reading is revealing how my personal summer of cleansing for the sake of consciousness boosting, and the global occurrences of the “Occupy” groups, assassinations of “terrorists, ” and the “elite energy’s” grappling to retain power over the people– has all been written in the stars.

While I certainly haven’t followed astrology, I’ve had my own recent astral travels and dreams through wormholes, into alternate dimensions and galaxies and have been made aware of the needed upcoming changes in our way of life here on earth. I’ve also been made aware though my communication with guides, in dreams as well as through my own reading and studying that we have plenty of help from nature and source energy (God, Goddess, Spirit, Angels, Guides, whoever/whatever you like to call it) during this transitional period. We have been evolving since we came into being, but these days are proving to be a rapid evolution of consciousness that opens up our awareness of our connection to our planet even more.

In order to incarnate here, it seems we decided to lose our true divine nature. Perhaps that was necessary to accomplish all of the technological advances throughout the centuries. After all, pain inspires humans. But all of that pain that has piled up over time has been sitting in our collective emotional bodies, awaiting for the right moment to be set free in healing. Could this have been set in the stars too?

Tonight’s a new moon in Scorpio which completely cosmically supports my own families personal efforts to cling to mama earth energy ( as we are Eco-fying our RV and offering ourselves to the world as healers). This energy is also completely supportive of the needed disconnects that had to happen for us this summer, as our path becomes clearer. Globally, we all need to shift our intentions and attention to the needs of our planet because she provides us with everything we need for survival, and as I am learning — so much more than that once we jump on board. The “negative” energies of blaming, judging and resisting are old patterns that we taught ourselves. Perhaps as survival mechanisms. A lot of those negative energies are surfacing just as parasites resurface when you go on a cleansing diet. It’s their final call for help.

What I think we really need to understand is that these negative energies are a valid part of us that feels it must fight to survive. We are energetically and cosmically supported, and will thrive if we learn to welcome in and help shift the intentions of that small percentage of ourselves. It is not your sister who is fighting you. It is you who is fighting you.

The world is set for growth and it says so everywhere. Personally, I’ve never been so sure that it’s okay to reveal my truest thoughts as I do now….and I have a recollection of my past lives. What we feel personally is a microcosm of what is going on across the planet. Centuries ago, groups like the Free Masons or Illuminati were formed so that people could freely share their ideas. Perhaps their original agendas were pure and only kept secret for their safety. Now, the threats to our safety from these groups who have created unhealthy restrictions on our food supply and money (to name a few) represents our own fear that we cannot control our own lives. I see these as old patterns that are dying. While they seem real, they do not represent the rich planet that we actually live on. Once we all come into our power by connecting to the earth, and our purpose here, the need for hidden negative agendas will fizzle away. And so will the need for secret societies.

Threats are really only as real as we make them. If we focus more on what we love rather than what we fear or hate, we will be gifted with more of what we love. I keep hearing the words of a farmer I met last year who said….’nothing good ever dies on God’s earth’. This planet will survive. And all that is not innately good for the earth will transition into something that is. To me that means that to some extent the recent upheavals are good for us. We are evolving and it will get as messy as it needs to be for us to wake up.

When you begin waking up to what life and you are really made from, you have no choice but to serve the planet and her people. You will find that these days it is much easier to purchase goods that harm our planet than those that support her. Most grocery stores, clothing stores, malls, etc. sell products that are made from toxic materials that harm our atmosphere and the people making them. Much of the money you spend on these products goes to make rich people richer so they can invest in secret money trades, chemicals and processes that further harm us all. Down the line you will notice that much of these items cannot be recycled or cause even more damage to the planet to recycle them. Food that lines your grocery shelves is devoid of nutrition yet full of things that can kill you. And worse yet, if you’re savvy you can see the conspiracies behind why our food is making us sick. The smartest of us know that even eating organic and shopping at a health food store doesn’t guarantee food safety and is sometimes simply another trick to take more of our money and punish us for our conscious consumerism. Despite all of this, or perhaps because of this, I see a huge light. A light that says to get even closer to the earth, dig deeper. Learn more. If the grocery store was perfect, what need would we have for growing our own foods?

The earth misses farmers who planted crops and tended to them. There is plenty more space on this earth that is still untainted, and even much that can be healed. Getting close to the ground and creating a garden says that you can control your food supply. The connection with the earth’s rhythm is so healthy for you that companies have successfully replicated it for sale and it’s used in healing cancer and autism (to name a few). Get your hands in the soil and you get that vibration running through you free of charge. In Traditional Chinese Medicine, working closely with plant life is considered very restorative to your jing ( like your essence…. Breath of life). It’s also helpful in restoring balance to your yin which is your structure- bones, blood etc. Your yin is your female energy. When you hear of the Divine Feminine, you are hearing about that collective feminine energy that we have forsaken for centuries. This energy is the core we are built on. And, because it has been lost for most of human existence here…. We are crumbling. All of the recent public outbursts that threaten our power and health are symbolic of how we a crumbling at our core. But, when this happens, it is important to know that rebirth is really the only option. Death does not exist so that is not an option. We are not truly threatened, but challenged to get closer and closer to the truest truth for us.

Getting closer and closer to nature has helped me keep balanced and feel safe and positive while I see others trembling in fear. Of course I believe in a creator, and guides and those energies have helped me. And they are also a part of nature. When you can delete from your life any energies that you come across which harm nature (for me this means chemical-laden foods and products, negative media, etc) and welcome time outdoors and in meditation,  you will see that you only crave more of the same and your awareness of your purpose also becomes much more clear.

Go stick your hands in some dirt, my friend. Take time to enjoy your planet. The rewards for taking care of her are beyond what I can describe. And, you are fully supported during your time of massive expansion.

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Gina
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My Spiritual Growth through Challenge

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From fall 2011

I thought I would’ve waited much longer to write this post. Usually, I like to get a good distance from my challenging moments before I share their messages with you. But, it seems that that this last season’s happenings have turned out to be something that inspired the greatest consciousness shift I’ve ever experienced. Since that’s what this site is all about, I know it will help us all if I share it now.

My life has been full force into Bliss Consciousness since at least the time when we really discovered that Dougie was healing  from autism, and our family would thrive. This was about the same time that messages from guides and angels became a constant presence in my life, and I knew Everything is just as it should be. Somewhere around 2008, I read Elkhart Tolle, Louise Hay, discovered Abraham Hicks and decided that loving myself was an option. I even began to feel love for myself.

Since then, I endured a real-time week-long journey into my past lives — where I saw many of the places and people I’ve been. This included 24 straight hours in a trance-state where spirit both spoke through me and shared insights with me about my purpose, my health, and messages for friends that all proved to be true. I’ve had seizures. I‘ve experienced great healing of physical illness through diet change, energy healing and positive affirmations. I’ve spent days without money for food. Months without rent money. Changed careers. Hit ultimate financial lows and highs. Connected with amazing people on the same path. I’ve struggled through the disapproval of family members – wondering how I could remedy the pain that they inflicted on me just for being me. And, I’ve felt an increasing urge of gratitude pouring through me for all of these experiences. I would love the easy way out. I would. But, I’ve been programmed for the hard lessons and there has been so much joy through these challenges. I’ve recently been allowing for that thought-reprogramming to take place too 🙂

I began 2011 knowing that this was my year. And, by this time, I was more comfortable than ever with my psychic and healing gifts and how they play a role in my purpose here. My guides told me that I am here to help raise consciousness. The details by which I do that are my choice. But, I’ve noticed that I get instant karmic rewards when I make the choices that mean standing in my own power.

This week, I have finally learned that standing in my own power and the ultimate truth that we are all one – brings me closer to God, makes me feel eternally protected and grateful, and also fills me with whatever I need to keep doing my work. This week that translated into a boatload of funding for our Bliss Tour, excellent chiropractic work to help heal us from our car accident, a humongous increase in my psychic ability, a brand new iPad which makes business infinitudes easier, great sushi dinners with friends, angel-inspired encounters with government institutions, amazing and very informative dreams, and most importantly, a sense of inner peace that I never had before.

And I thought I was  already pretty Blissy.

This past summer really marked the beginning of the rest of our lives as healers and earth-loving consciousness boosters. We believe that when you chose to live a life in service of humanity, everything should be universally provided. It only takes allowing the flow. It always proves right for us. So, we came out to Chicago to buy an RV for living, working and traveling.  So that we can share and explore more of our purpose with you. This carefully crafted choice also reduces our expenses by 2/3 AND allows us to completely eliminate bills for things that harm the earth (working on the gasoline issue).

Our extended families live here. And, they  met us with instant opposition. I’d forgotten that not everyone lives divinely inspired lives because they block that inspiration. They block their beauty.  Sure, I too have blocked my beauty for so long…. Even now, I’m still feeling it more, daily.
I’d forgotten that we left Chicago having been wrongfully judged and blamed in the first place. I’d forgotten that most of the people we know here are not in agreement with our lives. Some of them wish us harm. Some spend time disapproving of us. We’ve been here for what seems like too long for my heart, but the reasons are so divinely amazing. I needed a breakthrough and I got one.

I will recap the events that I thought broke my heart, so that I can more quickly get to the Blissy part. 12 people in my friends and family passed away in the last 6 months. Most were younger than me. 2 were people who asked me for help, but didn’t find the time to make the changes I suggested even though they wanted to. 1 was a baby cousin who I thought was the absolute most beautiful girl I’ve ever seen, and her passing was accidental. Many of these people passed from cancers that grew almost overnight, and were not caused by smoking, overeating, or heredity.

Some family members have admitted loudly and angrily that they believe with all of their hearts that I am being manipulated, and therefore won’t accept me in their lives unless I make the changes they need for me to be acceptable to them. This may include divorcing the man God and Goddess sent to be with me on our Blissful mission. I received a text from a relative whom I had hugged in tears one month prior, while promising that nothing should ever come between us — warning me never to contact him again until I grow up. Another relative accidentally called me, and hung up right away when I told him I love him. I gotta tell you right now that the rumors got so bogus, I soon began to laugh at them. I’ve been called lazy, disrespectful, and “psychic” oooooooh!

Seems that my bliss doesn’t equal bliss by their standards. They equate love with worry and see me as a great target for their blame and baggage. Where people only passive-aggressively put me down in the past, the poop hit the fan this summer, baby.

I accidentally cut off my finger-tip one nigh on a razor, while fishing through a toiletry bag. And screamed at the top of my lungs at the moment – only to find that the 3 in-laws in the room next-door didn’t budge. Didn’t ask what happened. I was given a third-party account about how much of burden I am to the in-laws. I overheard that I do not take care of Dougie like I should. I got into a painful car accident. While we remodel our RV, we’re currently staying with some extended family who do not like me or love me and would rather I was gone. And, for the icing on the power-challenging cake- my son was harmed by someone close to the family, and we were chastised for even addressing the matter. To endure, because I know that I am always in the right place at the right time, I send myself and them love, light, protection, forgiveness and Reiki. I call upon the violet flame. I surround my thoughts with people I love and who love me. I have daily convos with St. Claire and St. Francis. And, I stay out of the energy field of people who have wrongfully accused me of being a burden. I send love in silence and I spend most hours away while getting my life lived. In other words, i live in a self-created light bubble. But, stuff was starting to painfully creep in.

Saturday evening was the most lovely amazing experience. Someone who wrongfully blamed me for being in their way, and hasn’t spoken to me in 6 weeks, passive-aggressively said I was rude (for not speaking to her). Hahahahahaha. This was either rock bottom or nirvana depending on how I look at it.

I didn’t at all connect with that accusation. It didn’t feel real. Think, false timeline stuff. I see these false realities all around me these days. But, I allowed myself to respond to her passive-aggressively by asking my husband out loud if we could leave. But,  I quickly realized the un-bliss in my reaction and turned it around right away. Doug would’ve taken me anywhere I wanted to go. But, both of us were crazy crashed after a day of working on the rv and with clients –our bodies needed to rest. That’s when my guides appeared around me. It was as if they were holding me up…. creating a backbone.

As long as I know that this person’s views of me are really not my concern and by no means define who I am, I had no reasons to leave that night. What was my need for being passive-aggressive? Did I want to cause her pain because her words stung me? No, I didn’t. I don’t wish her harm, I don’t care what she thinks of me. Woah ! Have you any idea what a breakthrough this is for me? I’ve always cared about what others think. I’ve always want to please. While that thought pattern has healed over the years, I’ve never allowed myself to feel so completely in the right despite being accused, as I did the other night.

I’ve been done fighting for a while now. I don’t really argue angrily with anyone. But, silence says so much. I was previously programmed for my silence to say that I am but a little piece of poo on the grand green mountain of abundance that was those people who put me down.

Saturday night for me was about giving myself permission to be me, and whatever that means is fine.  And, it can change/ It’s permission to let my light shine no matter what. I stayed because it was the right thing to do at the time. No one should endure such criticism, because it can take energy away from the Bliss Work we are here for. The point is that for whatever reason, I needed that particular challenge to really just feel awesome for being me.

Knowing that I am only bringing light into this world. I am only a mirror for those who judge me. And this was apparent on emotional and logical levels.

Wow! I’ve waited longer than my whole life to feel this way. That person, who has been in my life for centuries as a murderer and vibe stifler, just became one of my most valuable teachers.  And who wouldn’t love their teachers? She represents my shadow and my doubts. And she brought all my fears out to the surface. I’ve always been over-cautious of being rude or hurting people’s feelings. I thought it was what would make me a good person. I thought I had to belittle me in order to serve them. This was a pattern I set long ago, and lived with unconsciously.

I’m on this huge spiritual ride, and I know that the Universe will clear out all the junk that I don’t address myself. Those self-doubts were serious. They were deep. Nobody said anything about me that I didn’t secretly worry about myself anyway.

Everything that occurred in my life this summer happened only to help raise me up. There is no death or time. Energies that represent greed, fear anger, doubt, worry, shame, etc are fizzling away. Naturally, they grasp for life by stifling the ones who are here to change things. They resist change. It’s been a challenge for me because the people involved were people I cared about more than anyone (besides Doug and Dougie). The Universe had to get through to me somehow.

After a few days, I’ve been able to think about this whole situation and laugh…Rather abundantly too. I mean, think about how people really look when they are putting you down. When they are scowling their faces or making a point to judge you and ‘hate on you’ while you Bliss out with all of the miracles in your life. Here I am helping people on the other side of the globe heal a hole in the heart, while worrying that my Eco-fied priorities bug the heck out of people who find money, cars and exclusivity to be their thang. They don’t care enough about me to hate me. I know their blaming and poo-throwing is because they are uncomfy with themselves.  How silly am I? And, how silly are they?

We all play this silly game so we can learn.

It’s time for great change and great courage. Time to step into our power. You will know you have done the right thing if your truth doesn’t involve hurting anyone else in any way. Of course that is not to say that people won’t get hurt or blame you for it. But, you must know in your heart that your intentions are pure. Then, stand in the power of that purity and accept the gifts the Universe dishes out for folks who stand up for what is right. There are always signs and rewards. After my decision not to run from the false a accusations, I did some energy work on myself. Then, I was gifted with amazing new levels of psychic accuracy. I can only interpret that to mean that my path is being cleared of gunk that used to cloud my mind. There is so much freedom in finding that balance.

I’m so grateful for this summer and am so excited for Today!

 

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Life Keeps Living, Energy Never Ends: On Death and Dying

In the midst of moving into simpler living on the road, my goal was to keep my mind focused on things like packing, seeing clients, and tying-up class work for my upcoming workshops. That alone kept me comfortably overwhelmed. But, I was sucked out of my sleep last night by a message that had nothing to do with my goals. Life often works that way for me.

The message was about death. I guess it was on my mind because it’s everywhere.. and the looming of it over family members and friends who are on their way out of life is pretty intense. Since losing my grandfather, I’ve lost all fear of dying, and all uncertainty of the ultimate continuousness of life. But death is always everywhere right? It’s a natural part of life. I think it was Eckhart Tolle who I heard say that “death is not the opposite of life, but the opposite of birth.” It’s just a part of the cycle of energy, and we fear it because our culture conditioned us to fear it. But, there are plenty of other cultures who understand dying more deeply and actually consciously welcome it when the time comes.

Still, there are a lot of unknowns. And, when you lose someone close, all of this new age bulloney hardly hugs your heart. And, my heart hurts so much when I see a child lose their mommy, or a mommy lose her baby, husband lose a wife, friend lose their best pal. Now that I’ve chosen a career as a helper to those who want to heal themselves, I encounter people making decisions on how to treat illness with hopes of saving their lives. I see a lot of people choosing to fight with medicines, chemicals and surgeries, and losing their lives. So, I went to bed the other night with this lurking in my mind. When one young person dies – the memory of all the young ones who have lost their lives to tragedy, accident and illness all kind of come sneaking back. And, I asked (God, my guides, my inner self) Why? What’s the lesson here? Why are these children (some of them in my own family) now living without their mommy? Could I h ave done something with knowledge that was given to me intuitively? Sometimes I get psychic guilt. I see these things happen, and I assume I see them because I can stop them. But, perhaps I’m not supposed to stop them?

Here’s what I got loud and clear: “She just really longed to get Home, Gina. You, of all people should understand the feeling of missing Home. You spend your life chasing a feeling of security, when you know there isn’t any in the material sense. You move from place to place and come home at night hoping to find that relief that you never get. You miss it so badly here too Gina. Everyone does. Most people don’t consciously realize what they are missing and they are quite successful filling their days with things that make them happy –relationships, knowledge, food. We want you to have these pleasures, but they never take the place of the Bliss you get when you return to your natural state in spirit. You choose when it’s time to come home. And, trust me, you won’t come until you are finished with what you set out to do. No one truly leaves. They just change. They change into their truer selves. No one is left. We would never leave anyone alone. When she left, she had the choice and she came freely and with joy as she saw her loved ones who had returned before her. She is resting and learning and considering coming back over to do more teaching. But, she fulfilled her purpose. More people who are close to you are going to return home soon because their purposes have also been filled, and they will better serve from Home. You will see them all again. Nothing could have been done to stop the “deaths” that we showed you before they happened. No wrong choices were made. The choices that were made were made according to the plan. You are doing a great job.”

When messages like this consume me — I can’t pack, plan, or prioritize until I write them out. Now that loud inner voice “She just really longed to get Home, Gina,” has calmed down. So, I hope this helps you in some way. If you have recently lost a loved one – I think the important thing is that he or she is Home.

I wish you love,

Gina

Jesus was a Pisces Too

I recently found Googled proof that I share a birthday with Jesus. I’d been looking for JC’s “real” birthday since well before Christmas –because the “holidays’ continue to lose meaning for me. I’m puzzling together a spiritual education for my son that includes teachings of all of the spiritual masters. But, I’m doing it on a shoestring time budget. So, admittedly – I “Google” many things first.

Although you can find ANYTHING on the internet, and so much of it is clouded in “scientific proof” or the admitted opinions of fantasy seekers – something about this made me ponder my connection with Jesus more deeply. And what came of it is pretty cool.

You see, I’m not a Christian. I was raised Catholic, and as an extremely sensitive and psychic child that really gave me a bad taste for church, church music, and images of Christ on the Cross. At a young age, I didn’t buy that suffering was what Jesus meant to teach us. And, I expressed that by throwing tantrums, giving the evil eye to people at church, and not singing or shaking hands at “peace be with you” when I was supposed to. Still, I found myself talking to Jesus, the “Real Jesus” (in my mind), in most of my internal conversation. I felt him holding me on many nights. Then, I grew up.

Until last January, when I had the most amazing and painful experience with the spirit world, I hadn’t seen Jesus in ages. But soon my visions, feelings and messages increased daily.

I hear that the times are changing, and soon messages like this will become more okay and accepted by all. And, in fact that messages like this are what we need to heal many of our pains. In a dream, Jesus told me to look at my hands. And, in them were endless crystal pools. He said “You know what you do with your hands?…. I taught you that.”

Since 2011 began, my visits from Jesus in dreams and waking life have inspired me to further study his connection to Reiki Healing… we all read in the Bible that Jesus healed with his hands – but I wanted to know how that connected to Reiki. When I asked that question in my mind, my brain filled with the Hare Krishna song, and I heard Jesus tell me that he has traveled to India. Then signs continued to pop up that he in fact DID travel there and shared knowledge with eastern spiritual leaders.

Everything brings me back to the idea that we are all connected and that was his true message. We are so connected that it makes my head spin sometimes. My husband feels my headaches, my son reads my thoughts, and I always wake up KNOWING some of what’s about to unfold for the day.

As a child, I had no idea how to marry my inner world with my outer, so I wrote a lot. I used to just let my pen float over the page and write “what God told it to write” then look up to my bedroom ceiling and say “Thank you God.” It was the best way I could connect with spirit. And, when God made my pen move I knew he/she was still there.

Today I know that I can connect with spirit more by connecting with you, and sharing the work that has been passed down to me.

As I write and teach I grow so much. But, I no longer fear exploding. I’m about to turn 32 on March 1. My birthday hasn’t meant that much to me since the days my dad used to take me out for lox and bagels, bowling and clothes-shopping. Don’t get me wrong…. there have been awesome birthdays.. really awesome ones. But, I’m a pisces and I always look for deep meaning.

This year, the deeper meaning is in the gifts I give. I already have some up my sleeve for the loves in my life. And, please keep watch for the ones I have for you.

Bliss You

Gina

PS. My parents names are Joseph and Marion…. just a blissy co-inkydink, huh?

Image Credit: “Om” By, Layalk

I Thank the Lord for the People I Have Found

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Yep, I so borrowed that line from Elton John, and I thank the Lord for him too.   If you’re kind to me, I may one day share the love poem I wrote to EJ in 8th grade.

2010 has rocked my socks off

I went through countless and often very un-desired computer and electronic problems. In the throws of the current Mercury Retrograde, my phones fizzled out, my computer crash, boom, banged on many levels, I lost more of my files (research and other “important” stuff),my sink clogged, ants took over my apartment, my gas was turned off,  I broke the movie screen at our local library with 2 bits of Reiki (whoops)and I spent a lot of time in talks with my guides about what it all meant.

But, I’m convinced that these techy bumps in the road have cleared the path for what’s to come.

I wrote so much  this year that my fingers nearly melted, I surpassed my career goals, I held my little man’s hand to his first day of school, I said yes a lot,  I ate sushi again,  I  learned that I  love durian, I went to  my first  heavy metal concert, I connected with the awesomeist clients ever, I became a Reiki Master Teacher, I performed my first official intuitive/psychic readings (well, in this life time), I had a spontaneous 36-hour past life regression that taught me so much about myself, I learned how to say no, I forgave and let go, I spent 90% of the time with my my soul twin and hubby, Doug, and thankfully I found this yummy bliss inside that rocks my world.

And that’s just an ounce of it

I’m a people person. If you work with me, you know that it usually takes all of 2 minutes to become my friend. I’ve met and lost many friends this year. All in good vibes though –for the experiences have really helped me enjoy the taste of life.

I am so thankful to you  for making your way in my life and sharing your energy and lessons. I am grateful to be able to hug you, listen to you, and even let you go, if that’s where the world has taken us. You, my friends make me realize how precious life is and I honor every moment that I know you.

My angel card for today was forgiveness

And,  the forgiveness that I sent and experienced today has opened me up for so much more. I’m ready for 2011, are you?

what rocked about 2010.. and what do you want ore of in 2011?

I really am so grateful for you.

Namaste,

Gina