Dream: Shadow-Self Embracing with Jesus (Part 1)

Stained glass at St John the Baptist's Anglica... Stained glass at St John the Baptist’s Anglican Church http://www.stjohnsashfield.org.au, Ashfield, New South Wales. Illustrates Jesus’ description of himself “I am the Good Shepherd” (from the Gospel of John, chapter 10, verse 11). This version of the image shows the detail of his face. The memorial window is also captioned: “To the Glory of God and in Loving Memory of William Wright. Died 6th November, 1932. Aged 70 Yrs.” (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Dreams are very important to me and my work. It is in our dreams that we let go of the human (3 dimensional world) limitations that keep us from knowing our true selves. As I travel my path and continue to help others on theirs, I thought it would be helpful to share some of my dreams with you. I’ve been so close to Jesus (in the most non-religious way imaginable) since I was a child. He has physically held me and guided me through the craziest and most confusing times. This post is not to offend anyone else’s interpretation of who Jesus is. 

Last night, I lay stuck in my bed — completely unable to move. I had an eerie feeling in my gut. Doug and Dougie were cuddled up in the bed beside mine, snoozing perfectly, and I wanted so desperately to call to them and to be next to them. We’ve been sleeping in someone’s basement on 2 mattresses on the floor until while we finish our house on wheels. I was beginning to feel mentally exhausted from this and longing for that sense of HOME that was inches away from me. I tried lifting my head to no avail.  My neck felt like lead. My forehead burned. Fear was creeping up from my feet to head, but I didn’t know exactly why. I tried lifting my hands, but a tremendous weight held me down. And my stomach sank even more.

Out of the half-open doorway came a woman who I knew to be myself. She looked quite evil though. And her hair was much longer. “I must be dreaming,” I thought. And, at that time, I realized that I REALLY could not speak. This wasn’t something temporary. I was screaming in my mind. If this was a dream, I was supposed to have a guide. I always have guides during my most painful dreams. “Where is my guide?” I thought very loudly. And, “why was I so afraid of myself?” And, “was she really me?”  I could tell her intentions were dark.

She sat on the edge of the bed where my husband and son slept. And, she raised her hands above their heads, as if to put some dark spell on them. She stared directly at me the entire time. I bit my tongue. I do this in dreams to wake myself up in emergency cases. I felt the bite on my tongue, but it didn’t wake me. I knew I was sleeping too deeply. The pain I felt was in my mind only, because I couldn’t move. So, with the shadow-me staring me down and threatening my loved ones, I began to use my mind to hurt myself even more — with hopes of waking my physical body. I imagined pinching and scratching at my arms and squeezing my hands. That only worked to cause me more pain. I gave up trying to hurt myself.

At that moment I felt a warmth that told me I was being held by Jesus. And, I heard his voice. He assured me that the woman was me. My shadow. With him there, my fears began fading, but I still had to save my men. She continued hovering over Doug and Dougie with her ill intentions. Jesus held me more and filled me with a violet light that I knew I had to transfer to the shadow me. She understood my thoughts, so talking to her was unnecessary.

Again, I tried talking with my voice, only to become more drained and frustrated. My heart felt that this was some kind of test. I KNEW how to reach her without words or movement, but still I used up all of my physical strength and resources before I would even admit my other abilities to myself. Violet light seeped through my hand chakras to her heart. She didn’t budge. My spirit began lifting off my body. Jesus nodded and helped me as my soul peeled from the paralyzed flesh and bones on the bed.  I didn’t want to fully let go. I kept resisting and having to start over. Then, finally I hovered over her. I expanded the violet light to create a bubble around her. She didn’t budge, but she still hadn’t hurt my guys, so I was gaining hope and confidence. “ You love Jesus,” I told her with my mind. She barely flinched. “ You love him and he is here to help you. He will comfort you.” She was getting fired up.

Jesus comforted me and told me I was doing a great job. But, we had to kick up the pace a little. She was very lost and hearing Jesus’ name fired her up a little more each moment. She couldn’t see him or feel him. Only I could.

I let go into his arms and his voice came through me. “I am here,” he said to her. His voice came through my entirety — like a loud boom that filled the room. My lips didn’t move and I wondered where he was actually speaking through.

“I am here, and I will help you. Feel the light and let it sink into you. It will dissolve all that makes you doubt your true power. You too are of this light. I am Jesus. You know me.”

I couldn’t tell if she was cracking or not. I had my doubts and my hopes. And, I was getting very tired from having the voice speaking through me. I was back inside my physical body.

She got off the bed and started to charge toward me in slow motion. I created an instant violet bubble around Doug and Dougie. I let that bubble grow and grow until they were completely protected. But, where was Jesus? My consciousness of him was in and out and I was becoming more tired.

“I won’t hurt you,” I  told her with my mind. “But, oh I will destroy YOU!” she said back to me. Her negative energy was taking my breath away. I was losing strength. I felt an urge to squish her. And I thought I could with my mind. But, that violet light was becoming stronger and more apparent. It was filling the room, and all it made me want to do is LOVE HER. I was sending her zaps of love, but they didn’t seem to fully reach her. I was very confused.

She became a black/grey smoke cloud within the violet light. And, with energy from my palms, I spun her around in spirals. Her doubt and her hatred were so debilitating to me. I was exhausted. And, that’s when Jesus came through me again. This time his words were so strange, I could barely understand them. All, I know is that he seemed to be repeating the same mantra until she was almost completely dissolved. And, she and I both swam around in the light spirals until the tiniest bit of grey/purple darkness entered my heart. I fell unconscious and imagined Jesus was taking care of the rest. I wanted to help. I wanted to know what was happening. But, I had never been so tired. All I could do was let go. When it was over I felt different.

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Becoming One

 

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In the beginning, perhaps, there was One. And, that One Spark divided and became 2, then 4, then 16 sparks connected to and affected by the One. I see it that way.

Just as we begin with one cell that divides and sparks into our nose, our eyes, our hearts and our minds, so did the Universe begin with One. And so, within each of our cells is a spark from the Original Spark. And a Spark from each and every other spark created on the first day, and the second day, and every other day and every moment that ever was.

Perhaps we were there. Perhaps we sparked first as One. I think I remember the time. We decided to expand. We spanned the sky and the stars. We felt what it feels like to BE the heart of the ocean. We were inside each creature and creation. We left part of ourself in every place we touched, and continued to expand. We kept our promise.

A spark of desire for a sun to energize us created Earth’s biggest Star. We manifested chocolate, technology and palm trees to create beauty and variety that pleased us and built upon the intelligence of the Original Spark. Soon, we realized that we were just as much the Spark as the Spark was US. And the Spark could be pleased because we created pleasure.

As we expanded it became more difficult to remember our Original Spark, and when we saw glimpses of our darker sides that we didn’t understand — it became easier to ignore them. On and on, we kept our promise to expand and so we created much joy. But, each time we denied the misunderstood parts of our ever-evolving self, we lost touch with the Original Spark within us. That same spark that lights each cell through to our soul. That same Spark that granted us individual consciousness, free-will, and the choice to remember or forget.

Our Darkness began to think of itself as separate and alone. And as more beings continue to grow as part of our promise of expansion, the opportunity for aloneness and separateness multiplies with it. A vast amount of wisdom flashes by the eyes of those blinded by their fear, and goes almost completely unnoticed. Bliss that might possibly go unrecognized is created anyway. The Divine Intelligence that we are can’t stop expanding and creating such Bliss. We leave evidence for ourself in water droplets, star formations and in our own DNA. This is so that if we choose to remember, we know where to look for instructions on what to do next.

The opportunity to become One again may hit part of us as a saving grace from the depths of darkness. Those are the parts that must experience the darkness in order to see the light.Other parts of us may not wish to become One, and that is our choice. We will shed these parts rhythmically. And it will feel oh so good.

There is this massive shift calling us back to Oneness right now that we are feeling in near entirety. It’s only the lonely, left out parts of us that doubt this, and that can seem quite strong. But as we follow the call Back to the One Spark, we will begin to feel blessings beyond our imagination.

Oh, how many centuries it’s been since we really spoke with a tree or a dolphin. Oh, how exhilarating it feels to have the energy of the moon and the stars pulsating through our skin. Oh, the beauty in the birds, the strength in the mountains and the completeness of connectedness with another one of US. To feel the feelings of someone we thought of as separate only to realize we are the same.

Each time we Revel in the Bliss that we are already One, and have never stopped being so… We are rewarded. We feel more connected. And we are gifted with all of that wisdom that breezed by us when we weren’t looking. We can see that part of us expanded throughout the galaxy. We were never completely asleep. It was only a small part of us that fooled us. Fear can do that.

Mothers never died. People never left us. We have always had everything that ever was and ever will be. We just couldn’t see it. Until now. We can trust our eyes to see and our hearts to love because we were created with perfection for our purpose. And so, right now, some parts of our whole represent our eyes and our hearts and minds. Helping one another to see, think, feel, and forge the path to ONENESS is helping ourself keep our promise.

Om
Gina

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Occupy Forgiveness Now: A Key to Making the Occupy Movement Really Work for Us (plus a message from Laura Bruno)

~day 303: september 11, the path of forgiveness~
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This repost is a much needed message from my amazing friend Laura Bruno.  I’m compelled  to share this article this morning because it speaks to a very important underlying concern I have about the Occupy Movement. Not only are we seeing innocent people being pepper-sprayed, but many of the people “occupy” with intentions to never forget and never forgive.

Personally, I acknowledge my own responsibility as a human being with free-will to have taken part in vibrationally creating this 1% (elite energy) — perhaps by not saying “no” to what was morally wrong in the past, perhaps for not asking questions about policies, perhaps for not looking into the mal-affects of vaccines before simply signing up for them.

We all have our own shadows. The parts of ourselves that we ignore or feel aren’t good enough. This elite energy represents our collective shadow. Do you know what our shadow selves really want?  They want to be accepted. Welcomed. Comforted. And do you know what happens when you really accept those shadow parts of you? Those shadows stop being so scary. They integrate with your light.

If we don’t forgive our shadow… our government…. the Banksters… We will suffer. I guarantee you that the  shadow government doesn’t “want’ your forgiveness. Because it feeds on lower energies of fear, doubt, anger and greed. If you can keep being mad at them, they can control your higher energies of LOVE and CONSCIOUSNESS. And, they win.  Forgiving “them” is forgiving you and me. Its helping all of us. The intention to forgive is a great place to start,

Please read Laura’s post. It represents the reasons why I will not  “Occupy,”  but would rather support the occupiers with foods and energies to raise their vibration and heighten their message.

Occupy, George Soros and Anonymous: A Call to Lightworkers

By, Laura Bruno

I wrote this post as an after comment to my Uncle Brad’s recent insider report regarding Occupy Madison and Recall Scott Walker. Since my comment looks at more global patterns and symbolism, I thought I’d also include it as a separate entry:

find myself cautiously excited that so many people are waking up to hidden patterns that have arisen like giant boogie men in the night — boogie men that, ironically, are forcing people out of “comfortable” lies that never felt that comfy. As people mobilize from powerlessness and shame into anger, they begin to reclaim their power. There is power in rage. There’s power in saying, “Enough is enough.” And, as we’re seeing, there’s power in peaceful protest.

I still have my concerns on several levels, not the least of which is that Obama’s calling home 20,000 troops to deal with potential “domestic emergencies.” Earlier this year, way before George Soros’ money funded the initial Occupy Wall Street idea, returning vets admitted being asked if they would shoot American citizens if ordered to do so. I’ve had dreams to this effect, and I hope they don’t come to pass. The fact that Congress wants to cut veterans’ healthcare benefits but not Congress’s own cushy pensions and healthcare may result in more and more veterans waking up to how much their government continues to betray them and the Constitution they swore to protect. Thenew law by Obama to permit detention of 500,000 Americans as “terrorists” or “potential terrorists” makes him the first American President to name his own citizens as a threat to national security. “President Obama is said capable of seeing up to 500,000 American citizens jailed for the crime of opposing their government.” (Full article here.) Opposing their government? What exactly are all these Occupy folks doing? I support them, but I also support people being “wise as serpents and harmless as doves.”

I don’t like to give much attention to these sorts of things, but they do cross my radar, especially in light of all the police brutality and the fact that local law enforcement officials are being sent to Israel for “counterterrorism” training. I just really, really don’t want to see Occupy used as a justification for Martial Law, the cancelling of 2012 elections, and a grab for a New World Order One World Government. When these things cross my radar, I very firmly increase visualizations and feelings of peaceful, radical change –on both the inner and outer level.

Another thing that concerns me about Occupy is the credo of Anonymous: “We do not forgive. We do not forget. We are legion.” I do see this as a version of “Enough is enough,” but it also makes me cringe. Refusing to forgive or forget locks people into the ties that bind. In the words of Lewis B. Smedes, “To forgive is to set a prisoner free and discover that the prisoner was you.” A movement aiming for freedom, which has as its motto a refusal to forgive, cannot ultimately attain its purported aim of freedom. I like Brad’s point that installing another candidate is a step, not the endpoint. Perhaps if we can focus on the initial steps to end the abuse, we can eventually all move to the next steps of forgiving and forgetting — forever liberating ourselves from abusive governments, corporations and religions. I am not known as the most patient of people, so I continue to tell myself, “Give it time, Laura, give it time. For most people, this is the first they’re discovering any of this. They are living in a Gloria Steinem reality: ‘The truth will set you free, but first it will piss you off.’”

And so I breathe. I do a lot of breathing, and I work to root out any lurking masochistic tendencies hiding in my own Shadow. I also encourage Lightworkers to amp up positive visualizations of what we do want.

The last part of the Anonymous credo makes me shiver, in part, because I hear myself repeating something scary, compassionless, fear-mongering Ann Coulter noticed.(Never say never!) The truth is, I am a closet Bible nerd. “We are legion” refers to Mark 5:9 where Jesus prepares to cast a demon out of a man: “Then Jesus asked him, ‘What is your name?’ ‘My name is Legion,’ he replied, ‘for we are many.’” Jesus then drives the Legion into a herd of pigs who fling themselves over a cliff and to their deaths. I don’t know if many people in Occupy know of this connection, but it gives me the heebeejeebees and makes me wonder if some sick wacko isn’t laughing with irony at the entire Occupy Movement. It would sort of be like Henry Kissinger saying, “Military men are just dumb, stupid animals to be used as pawns in foreign policy.” I really hope the Occupy scenario isn’t intended to set the stage for much imprisonment and many deaths, a la an Agenda 21 and Codex Alimentarius 90% depopulation scheme complete with FEMA camps, a one world government and a UN thug army.

I mention this not to create fear, but rather as an urgent call to all Lightworkers to please join me in surrounding this entire upsurging of humanity with lots of Reiki, healing, love, forgiveness and light. Love awakens DNA in ways that fear and unforgiveness simply can’t. Let’s consider that the torch has been passed, and now the masses themselves are beginning to see behind at least a few curtains. A new level of awareness has covered this planet, freeing Lightworkers to focus even more healing and positive energy towards the shift. Something’s shifting, alright, and I’m so encouraged by films like Thrive and I AM. I feel so encouraged to see people meditating at Occupy events and to see people refusing to take the bait of riot-seeking police.

But I love this planet, and I love this land and its people. The stakes are high now. I love a good story, and we’ve got an exciting one unfolding right before our eyes. Front row seats. I’m here for the happily ever after. We can find that space within and hold that space while the outside world sorts itself. If you want to make a difference and don’t feel right about physically protesting, that’s ok. Please do Occupy Yourself. And if you feel called to do so, please surrender and release this Movement and all movements to the Highest Good of All. Namaste and Blessed Be.

Laura Bruno is an author, medical intuitive, Reiki Master Teacher,  blogger and amazing soul who I am happy to know. Her work keeps us constantly updated on what’s really going on in such a love-action kind of way. Visit her at laurabruno.wordpress.com

xoxo

Gina

Energy Shifts Increase the Necessity for Eco Conscious Living Now

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I was never a deep follower of astrology. Mostly because I never found the time to absorb all of the math involved, and I’m not interested in the trendy horoscope stuff you find in the check-out lane next to the tabloids. I want the real deal. So, I waited until I was ready. I’m by no means an authority on the subject, but my reading is revealing how my personal summer of cleansing for the sake of consciousness boosting, and the global occurrences of the “Occupy” groups, assassinations of “terrorists, ” and the “elite energy’s” grappling to retain power over the people– has all been written in the stars.

While I certainly haven’t followed astrology, I’ve had my own recent astral travels and dreams through wormholes, into alternate dimensions and galaxies and have been made aware of the needed upcoming changes in our way of life here on earth. I’ve also been made aware though my communication with guides, in dreams as well as through my own reading and studying that we have plenty of help from nature and source energy (God, Goddess, Spirit, Angels, Guides, whoever/whatever you like to call it) during this transitional period. We have been evolving since we came into being, but these days are proving to be a rapid evolution of consciousness that opens up our awareness of our connection to our planet even more.

In order to incarnate here, it seems we decided to lose our true divine nature. Perhaps that was necessary to accomplish all of the technological advances throughout the centuries. After all, pain inspires humans. But all of that pain that has piled up over time has been sitting in our collective emotional bodies, awaiting for the right moment to be set free in healing. Could this have been set in the stars too?

Tonight’s a new moon in Scorpio which completely cosmically supports my own families personal efforts to cling to mama earth energy ( as we are Eco-fying our RV and offering ourselves to the world as healers). This energy is also completely supportive of the needed disconnects that had to happen for us this summer, as our path becomes clearer. Globally, we all need to shift our intentions and attention to the needs of our planet because she provides us with everything we need for survival, and as I am learning — so much more than that once we jump on board. The “negative” energies of blaming, judging and resisting are old patterns that we taught ourselves. Perhaps as survival mechanisms. A lot of those negative energies are surfacing just as parasites resurface when you go on a cleansing diet. It’s their final call for help.

What I think we really need to understand is that these negative energies are a valid part of us that feels it must fight to survive. We are energetically and cosmically supported, and will thrive if we learn to welcome in and help shift the intentions of that small percentage of ourselves. It is not your sister who is fighting you. It is you who is fighting you.

The world is set for growth and it says so everywhere. Personally, I’ve never been so sure that it’s okay to reveal my truest thoughts as I do now….and I have a recollection of my past lives. What we feel personally is a microcosm of what is going on across the planet. Centuries ago, groups like the Free Masons or Illuminati were formed so that people could freely share their ideas. Perhaps their original agendas were pure and only kept secret for their safety. Now, the threats to our safety from these groups who have created unhealthy restrictions on our food supply and money (to name a few) represents our own fear that we cannot control our own lives. I see these as old patterns that are dying. While they seem real, they do not represent the rich planet that we actually live on. Once we all come into our power by connecting to the earth, and our purpose here, the need for hidden negative agendas will fizzle away. And so will the need for secret societies.

Threats are really only as real as we make them. If we focus more on what we love rather than what we fear or hate, we will be gifted with more of what we love. I keep hearing the words of a farmer I met last year who said….’nothing good ever dies on God’s earth’. This planet will survive. And all that is not innately good for the earth will transition into something that is. To me that means that to some extent the recent upheavals are good for us. We are evolving and it will get as messy as it needs to be for us to wake up.

When you begin waking up to what life and you are really made from, you have no choice but to serve the planet and her people. You will find that these days it is much easier to purchase goods that harm our planet than those that support her. Most grocery stores, clothing stores, malls, etc. sell products that are made from toxic materials that harm our atmosphere and the people making them. Much of the money you spend on these products goes to make rich people richer so they can invest in secret money trades, chemicals and processes that further harm us all. Down the line you will notice that much of these items cannot be recycled or cause even more damage to the planet to recycle them. Food that lines your grocery shelves is devoid of nutrition yet full of things that can kill you. And worse yet, if you’re savvy you can see the conspiracies behind why our food is making us sick. The smartest of us know that even eating organic and shopping at a health food store doesn’t guarantee food safety and is sometimes simply another trick to take more of our money and punish us for our conscious consumerism. Despite all of this, or perhaps because of this, I see a huge light. A light that says to get even closer to the earth, dig deeper. Learn more. If the grocery store was perfect, what need would we have for growing our own foods?

The earth misses farmers who planted crops and tended to them. There is plenty more space on this earth that is still untainted, and even much that can be healed. Getting close to the ground and creating a garden says that you can control your food supply. The connection with the earth’s rhythm is so healthy for you that companies have successfully replicated it for sale and it’s used in healing cancer and autism (to name a few). Get your hands in the soil and you get that vibration running through you free of charge. In Traditional Chinese Medicine, working closely with plant life is considered very restorative to your jing ( like your essence…. Breath of life). It’s also helpful in restoring balance to your yin which is your structure- bones, blood etc. Your yin is your female energy. When you hear of the Divine Feminine, you are hearing about that collective feminine energy that we have forsaken for centuries. This energy is the core we are built on. And, because it has been lost for most of human existence here…. We are crumbling. All of the recent public outbursts that threaten our power and health are symbolic of how we a crumbling at our core. But, when this happens, it is important to know that rebirth is really the only option. Death does not exist so that is not an option. We are not truly threatened, but challenged to get closer and closer to the truest truth for us.

Getting closer and closer to nature has helped me keep balanced and feel safe and positive while I see others trembling in fear. Of course I believe in a creator, and guides and those energies have helped me. And they are also a part of nature. When you can delete from your life any energies that you come across which harm nature (for me this means chemical-laden foods and products, negative media, etc) and welcome time outdoors and in meditation,  you will see that you only crave more of the same and your awareness of your purpose also becomes much more clear.

Go stick your hands in some dirt, my friend. Take time to enjoy your planet. The rewards for taking care of her are beyond what I can describe. And, you are fully supported during your time of massive expansion.

This post was inspired by this one

Xoxoxo
Gina
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Blue dharma

My Spiritual Growth through Challenge

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From fall 2011

I thought I would’ve waited much longer to write this post. Usually, I like to get a good distance from my challenging moments before I share their messages with you. But, it seems that that this last season’s happenings have turned out to be something that inspired the greatest consciousness shift I’ve ever experienced. Since that’s what this site is all about, I know it will help us all if I share it now.

My life has been full force into Bliss Consciousness since at least the time when we really discovered that Dougie was healing  from autism, and our family would thrive. This was about the same time that messages from guides and angels became a constant presence in my life, and I knew Everything is just as it should be. Somewhere around 2008, I read Elkhart Tolle, Louise Hay, discovered Abraham Hicks and decided that loving myself was an option. I even began to feel love for myself.

Since then, I endured a real-time week-long journey into my past lives — where I saw many of the places and people I’ve been. This included 24 straight hours in a trance-state where spirit both spoke through me and shared insights with me about my purpose, my health, and messages for friends that all proved to be true. I’ve had seizures. I‘ve experienced great healing of physical illness through diet change, energy healing and positive affirmations. I’ve spent days without money for food. Months without rent money. Changed careers. Hit ultimate financial lows and highs. Connected with amazing people on the same path. I’ve struggled through the disapproval of family members – wondering how I could remedy the pain that they inflicted on me just for being me. And, I’ve felt an increasing urge of gratitude pouring through me for all of these experiences. I would love the easy way out. I would. But, I’ve been programmed for the hard lessons and there has been so much joy through these challenges. I’ve recently been allowing for that thought-reprogramming to take place too 🙂

I began 2011 knowing that this was my year. And, by this time, I was more comfortable than ever with my psychic and healing gifts and how they play a role in my purpose here. My guides told me that I am here to help raise consciousness. The details by which I do that are my choice. But, I’ve noticed that I get instant karmic rewards when I make the choices that mean standing in my own power.

This week, I have finally learned that standing in my own power and the ultimate truth that we are all one – brings me closer to God, makes me feel eternally protected and grateful, and also fills me with whatever I need to keep doing my work. This week that translated into a boatload of funding for our Bliss Tour, excellent chiropractic work to help heal us from our car accident, a humongous increase in my psychic ability, a brand new iPad which makes business infinitudes easier, great sushi dinners with friends, angel-inspired encounters with government institutions, amazing and very informative dreams, and most importantly, a sense of inner peace that I never had before.

And I thought I was  already pretty Blissy.

This past summer really marked the beginning of the rest of our lives as healers and earth-loving consciousness boosters. We believe that when you chose to live a life in service of humanity, everything should be universally provided. It only takes allowing the flow. It always proves right for us. So, we came out to Chicago to buy an RV for living, working and traveling.  So that we can share and explore more of our purpose with you. This carefully crafted choice also reduces our expenses by 2/3 AND allows us to completely eliminate bills for things that harm the earth (working on the gasoline issue).

Our extended families live here. And, they  met us with instant opposition. I’d forgotten that not everyone lives divinely inspired lives because they block that inspiration. They block their beauty.  Sure, I too have blocked my beauty for so long…. Even now, I’m still feeling it more, daily.
I’d forgotten that we left Chicago having been wrongfully judged and blamed in the first place. I’d forgotten that most of the people we know here are not in agreement with our lives. Some of them wish us harm. Some spend time disapproving of us. We’ve been here for what seems like too long for my heart, but the reasons are so divinely amazing. I needed a breakthrough and I got one.

I will recap the events that I thought broke my heart, so that I can more quickly get to the Blissy part. 12 people in my friends and family passed away in the last 6 months. Most were younger than me. 2 were people who asked me for help, but didn’t find the time to make the changes I suggested even though they wanted to. 1 was a baby cousin who I thought was the absolute most beautiful girl I’ve ever seen, and her passing was accidental. Many of these people passed from cancers that grew almost overnight, and were not caused by smoking, overeating, or heredity.

Some family members have admitted loudly and angrily that they believe with all of their hearts that I am being manipulated, and therefore won’t accept me in their lives unless I make the changes they need for me to be acceptable to them. This may include divorcing the man God and Goddess sent to be with me on our Blissful mission. I received a text from a relative whom I had hugged in tears one month prior, while promising that nothing should ever come between us — warning me never to contact him again until I grow up. Another relative accidentally called me, and hung up right away when I told him I love him. I gotta tell you right now that the rumors got so bogus, I soon began to laugh at them. I’ve been called lazy, disrespectful, and “psychic” oooooooh!

Seems that my bliss doesn’t equal bliss by their standards. They equate love with worry and see me as a great target for their blame and baggage. Where people only passive-aggressively put me down in the past, the poop hit the fan this summer, baby.

I accidentally cut off my finger-tip one nigh on a razor, while fishing through a toiletry bag. And screamed at the top of my lungs at the moment – only to find that the 3 in-laws in the room next-door didn’t budge. Didn’t ask what happened. I was given a third-party account about how much of burden I am to the in-laws. I overheard that I do not take care of Dougie like I should. I got into a painful car accident. While we remodel our RV, we’re currently staying with some extended family who do not like me or love me and would rather I was gone. And, for the icing on the power-challenging cake- my son was harmed by someone close to the family, and we were chastised for even addressing the matter. To endure, because I know that I am always in the right place at the right time, I send myself and them love, light, protection, forgiveness and Reiki. I call upon the violet flame. I surround my thoughts with people I love and who love me. I have daily convos with St. Claire and St. Francis. And, I stay out of the energy field of people who have wrongfully accused me of being a burden. I send love in silence and I spend most hours away while getting my life lived. In other words, i live in a self-created light bubble. But, stuff was starting to painfully creep in.

Saturday evening was the most lovely amazing experience. Someone who wrongfully blamed me for being in their way, and hasn’t spoken to me in 6 weeks, passive-aggressively said I was rude (for not speaking to her). Hahahahahaha. This was either rock bottom or nirvana depending on how I look at it.

I didn’t at all connect with that accusation. It didn’t feel real. Think, false timeline stuff. I see these false realities all around me these days. But, I allowed myself to respond to her passive-aggressively by asking my husband out loud if we could leave. But,  I quickly realized the un-bliss in my reaction and turned it around right away. Doug would’ve taken me anywhere I wanted to go. But, both of us were crazy crashed after a day of working on the rv and with clients –our bodies needed to rest. That’s when my guides appeared around me. It was as if they were holding me up…. creating a backbone.

As long as I know that this person’s views of me are really not my concern and by no means define who I am, I had no reasons to leave that night. What was my need for being passive-aggressive? Did I want to cause her pain because her words stung me? No, I didn’t. I don’t wish her harm, I don’t care what she thinks of me. Woah ! Have you any idea what a breakthrough this is for me? I’ve always cared about what others think. I’ve always want to please. While that thought pattern has healed over the years, I’ve never allowed myself to feel so completely in the right despite being accused, as I did the other night.

I’ve been done fighting for a while now. I don’t really argue angrily with anyone. But, silence says so much. I was previously programmed for my silence to say that I am but a little piece of poo on the grand green mountain of abundance that was those people who put me down.

Saturday night for me was about giving myself permission to be me, and whatever that means is fine.  And, it can change/ It’s permission to let my light shine no matter what. I stayed because it was the right thing to do at the time. No one should endure such criticism, because it can take energy away from the Bliss Work we are here for. The point is that for whatever reason, I needed that particular challenge to really just feel awesome for being me.

Knowing that I am only bringing light into this world. I am only a mirror for those who judge me. And this was apparent on emotional and logical levels.

Wow! I’ve waited longer than my whole life to feel this way. That person, who has been in my life for centuries as a murderer and vibe stifler, just became one of my most valuable teachers.  And who wouldn’t love their teachers? She represents my shadow and my doubts. And she brought all my fears out to the surface. I’ve always been over-cautious of being rude or hurting people’s feelings. I thought it was what would make me a good person. I thought I had to belittle me in order to serve them. This was a pattern I set long ago, and lived with unconsciously.

I’m on this huge spiritual ride, and I know that the Universe will clear out all the junk that I don’t address myself. Those self-doubts were serious. They were deep. Nobody said anything about me that I didn’t secretly worry about myself anyway.

Everything that occurred in my life this summer happened only to help raise me up. There is no death or time. Energies that represent greed, fear anger, doubt, worry, shame, etc are fizzling away. Naturally, they grasp for life by stifling the ones who are here to change things. They resist change. It’s been a challenge for me because the people involved were people I cared about more than anyone (besides Doug and Dougie). The Universe had to get through to me somehow.

After a few days, I’ve been able to think about this whole situation and laugh…Rather abundantly too. I mean, think about how people really look when they are putting you down. When they are scowling their faces or making a point to judge you and ‘hate on you’ while you Bliss out with all of the miracles in your life. Here I am helping people on the other side of the globe heal a hole in the heart, while worrying that my Eco-fied priorities bug the heck out of people who find money, cars and exclusivity to be their thang. They don’t care enough about me to hate me. I know their blaming and poo-throwing is because they are uncomfy with themselves.  How silly am I? And, how silly are they?

We all play this silly game so we can learn.

It’s time for great change and great courage. Time to step into our power. You will know you have done the right thing if your truth doesn’t involve hurting anyone else in any way. Of course that is not to say that people won’t get hurt or blame you for it. But, you must know in your heart that your intentions are pure. Then, stand in the power of that purity and accept the gifts the Universe dishes out for folks who stand up for what is right. There are always signs and rewards. After my decision not to run from the false a accusations, I did some energy work on myself. Then, I was gifted with amazing new levels of psychic accuracy. I can only interpret that to mean that my path is being cleared of gunk that used to cloud my mind. There is so much freedom in finding that balance.

I’m so grateful for this summer and am so excited for Today!

 

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Gina

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