Everyday I feel like I am getting closer to some sort of ultimate truth about who I am and what I am doing here. I have had a lot of eye-opening and miraculous experiences over the last few years. Experiences that were too insightful and intriguing to turn my back on. My life has taken so many turns that sometimes it’s difficult to accept where I am now in it. I love my life now more than I ever have in the past. It is the type of life and awakening that I hope for everyone, but I realize that plenty of people would not see it as I do. It is my path. My journey. My truth.
I used to be so caught up in materials. Wondering what new toy I could acquire next. Trying to outdo my neighbor. It turned out to be all for nothing. I learned that my gains were only holding me down. When I finally learned about source energy and how we are all energetic beings, I started to realize how silly I had been. How silly the whole system is. We are meant for so much more than we are giving ourselves credit for. So many get caught up in the rat race of business that we forget to take time to work on ourselves. To enlighten our minds. To feel the power that innately courses through our bodies.
We are all so awesome! So full of energy that needs to be released. I live day by day trying to understand what the next step will be that will bring me to some full understanding of the answer. The answer to the question that is behind us all when we are trying to sleep at night… Why are we here? The best and most reasonable explanation to our existence to me is that we are meant to enjoy ourselves. To break through our fears and seek the answers that our souls thrive for. It is in our nature to learn and grow.
So, this is me sprinkling some energy packed, highly nutritious water on that pineal gland of yours. Enjoy yourselves and never stop wondering. To hold onto an idea and conform to its teachings is to put your brain in a prison and throw away the key. Live your life to its fullest.
One day soon, I’ll have a book out about the amazing experience I had visiting the spirit world, and being led by my guides to a complete 24 hr + journey through many of my lifetimes. I finally have a computer, and am busy getting the post-it-note and toilet paper scrolls together and ready for release.
The journey happened in early 2010, and I spent that year absorbing it. What I feel most strongly about sharing here now is the affect it had on my eating. I’ve touched on it through other blogs and on Face Book. But, my understanding is unfolding beautifully and I thought you’d like to know.
During my “journey,” my body was open like a a channel for spiritual messages to come through. Think… mediumship. The “Gina” in me was quiet and voices spoke through me to give me information about my health and life purpose. Those same guides also held my hand and flew me through centuries of experience that showed me how I wound up HERE. My husband wrote down every word. I don’t remember much of the words, but at points I recall looking down at myself talking and being kind of shocked by what was coming out of my mouth.
I keep hearing this one line “She is NOT a vegetarian” over and over and over.
Clearly, these spirit guides detailed that I was headed for huge health dilemmas if I didn’t start eating white fish, black beans, tons of fermented greens, warm soups, and foods to support my blood and kidneys. Reishi was also key, as well as cumin, curry and turmeric. They actually told me to get back to my “Indian” roots. Ones which I do not have in this lifetime.
They told me that the vegetarian thing was a form of self-sacrifice for me, that I needn’t make anymore. They referred to me honing in and conserving my energy,
But darn me if it hasn’t been hell on high heels to implement. I really want(ed) to be a vegetarian. Well, until today. Yeah, it’s taken me THAT long to be okay with this. I’ve gone through stages. I’ve had moments of KNOWING I was doing the right thing. I ate the fish. I felt great. And, I lived another day in gratitude.
I heard Jesus and Einstein were vegetarians. So, was St Francis, a guide of mine who visited me on the day of my journey. Plus, I am Type A blood type – someone with low hydrochloric acid, and I have a very hard time breaking down animal protein. The thought of eating something that once had a life, a body, feelings and even perhaps a family grossed me out. It also REALLY pulls at my heart strings. I love animals. LOVE THEM. I used to dig hotdogs until I found out I could be eating hundreds of animals parts. Plus, don’t get me stared on the complete toxicity of all animal products – including the drugs and “food” they’re given, inhumane treatment, filthy and unnatural living conditions, carbon footprint, human gluttony. And the by-products they leave in our system when they go undigested.
I took the pain to some of my spiritual advisors and teachers. They all agreed that I needed to include animal products for the better of my health.
As I meditated on it more, I kept getting messages that it was okay. But I’d always find myself on either some health blog or human kindness/consciousness blog that fueled the doubt in my choice.
The problem was that it didn’t physically sustain me. Perhaps it could if I could afford mega supplementation. But, eating is fun. I want to eat my food. As it was, I was taking alga’s, hemp and chia, coconut kefir, EFAs, herbs, superfoods, and tons of fermented foods. TONS OF FERMENTED FOODS.
You know what I learned? Sometimes you need to get low in order to get HIGH. In Buddhism they have a saying that goes “As above, so below.” 3 servings of spirulina could get me so loopy I’d be floating with the fairies. Yeah, I could probably give you the winning lottery numbers if you asked, but I sure couldn’t keep the house clean. Plus, my skin was pretty dry, I was too thin for comfort and the deep circles under my eyes shouldn’t be there.
If raw veganism was perfect for me, I would’ve felt better. Plain and simple. I considered devoting 3 hours a day to energetically medicate myself with the energies of the animal products I needed. But, sheesh — if I did that, then I’d have less time with my family and you.
I always consider the messages I receive in client sessions. There are times when I “know” that someone needs fish, lamb, eggs etc. But, inside I felt it my responsibility to live this high spiritual life, and I didn’t want to let go of the energy that raw food gave me. According to my Chinese Doctor, I was high on Chi and low on Jing (source energy that is stored in your kidneys). If Jing runs out, so do we.
One way to nourish your Jing is to spend time with plant life. And, when I became more conscious of my communication with the trees, I realized that they have always talked to me. There’s a money tree in my healing room who shares daily love with me. And, a rubber tree in front of our apartment that I NEED to hug before I come up the stairs. My husband used to get annoyed with me when I’d sporadically HAVE to stop and lay in the grass during our walks in Chicago. My heart stung with emptiness when I denied myself that gift.
At the farmer’s market, I slowly flow my way from vendor to vendor and only purchase the produce that vibes with me. The greens and veggies I can “feel.”
Now, I was starting to question eating these magnificent vegetable-creatures. Was I becoming insane? Perhaps a bit, lol! There are people who can live on breath alone, but they are not me.
I began handling my veggies with more love and care and spending more time giving thanks for their gift to me. My journey taught me that time and space doesn’t exist. I saw the reason why I am here and learned from the animals and some of their representatives that they don’t mind being eaten as long as it is done with respect. Our bodies are not us. And, truthfully, I would not desire to be eaten, but there are greater causes I’d give my life to. I don’t take a bug’s life without pure necessity, and even then.. I pray its soul moves on without pain.
Maybe a day will come when I hunt wild meat and eat it raw. Certainly this would be healthiest all around, in my opinion. But probably not. My man though, he says he’ll hunt for me, and to do it all “Avatar” style.
For right now, I’m content as I move forward with a bite of turkey or some sushi that makes me feel amazing. It’s ironic how little meat/animal products I require considering all the mental/emotional traumas I put myself through over it. Bone broth is next, thanks to my friend Debbie at the Grass-Fed Momma. Debbie is one of those people who have made this “okay” for me.
The spirits want us all to know that we do not have all of the information about food. I think that’s apparent in the recent health debates where everyone has scientific proof that their way is the best way of eating. We make up our own truth and reasons and that is okay. Food is one Easy way to affect our energy. And, our bodies always crave balance. When we eat, nutritionally, the goal is absorption. Fermented foods help with absorption, and when I have them with my animal foods they make me feel amazing. Energetically, food can do so much deeper work. The vibration connected to what you are eating means so much more than the calories and nutrients. If you are denying yourself nourishment of any kind for the sake of what someone else says is the “right” way to eat, you will lose. But, you can only know this if you can hone in on your needs and trust your intuition.
I send you love and open-mindedness for your own journey.